Venting feels like i'll never find someone

[ihateittoo]

I've been single for a bit over a year now and its gotten really lonely these past few months. I feel like the start of my adult life is just being wasted alone. All of my friends are in normal relationships and it gets really disheartening knowing that because of the way I look thats not something I'll get to experience.

I met a guy on here and we started talking as friends and he was really sweet. He would listen to me and seemed to really care about me, but after 10 or so days he ended up asking me to send him nudes and unadded me when I didnt. It feels like the only time people will ever want to "love" me its when they want to use me sexually. I feel so gross about the whole situation and it hurt to lose a friend like that. It's not the first time ppl have been creepy to me and it further drives home the feeling that people only want me for short term sexual gratification and have no interest in me. I would talk to him every night and all it took was me saying that it freaked me out when he asked for nudes to have it all go away. I sorta felt like an insect on its back kinda squirming unable to flip itself over. Thats how I think I feel about a lot of these situations, I dont know if that'll make any sense to anyone other than me.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

That had nothing to do with you. We've had some insane people invade our safe space. Creeps, pro-lifers, undercover authority figures... Unfortunately, that risk never goes away. They use a kind mask as a tactic to lure people in. He wasn't your friend. So sorry a random crusty ass dude hurt you so much. You deserve someone who truly loves you <3