Feeling trapped, not sure if what I’m going to do is detrimental

[leadedSnail]

Huge emotions right now and needing to leave. I've been feeling trapped for over a year and feel like I am making no progress in my life. When I was more suicidal, I wanted to run away into a forest and see if my will to live would overtake this illness, and to see how hard I would fight for my life. Now, I'm instead considering joining a conservation corps somewhere in the US. Maybe that would help this trapped feeling? But I'm second guessing myself and wondering if separating from my support group and routine would be more detrimental to my recovery. The logistics of joining a corps are fine and I'm okay with shit pay, I just have an overwhelming feeling of being trapped and needing to leave.

 

[Hvergelmir]

It's not some irreversible, risky, or self destructive thing. I think you should pursue it with full confidence.
I think it's very unlikely that you'll find it detrimental for your long term recovery.

Compare it to other alternatives, but don't second guess yourself.
In my experience, leaving things behind and trying something new have always been the right thing to do, when feeling trapped.