Venting Feeling like a failure

[renaxx]

maybe I shouldn't have been born at all. I feel like I'm just a byproduct of people's careless lust and bad choices. Every day is a struggle because of it. People meet, date, have sex, and have kids without thinking, and here i am, left to deal with the consequences. I feel like I should have been aborted, but somehow i survived and ended up here, suffering. Why wasn't I? lf only proper contraception had been used, i wouldn't even exist to feel this pain. No one loves me, no one truly cares about me.

 

[Niron1492]

Same,my mother actually had a child aborted before me so im still wondering why she didnt just leave me out of this world too.It sucks alot,seeing people just take advantage of you,i got beaten up as a teen for just trying to be friends with some teen group,or someone tried to sexually assault me on an apartment i rented for my birthday.
I dont know about you but i hope i have the courage someday to get out of this world,i would love to wander the universe as a small star,even if its all black and dust mostly,its still better than this chaos here that everyone tries to take advantage of you.

 

[nullsoul]

나중에 시작할 때 말했어야 했을지도 모르지. 사람들의 부주의한 욕구과 잘못된 선택의 부산물처럼 느껴집니다. 그 때문에 매일매일이 고통스러워요. 사람들은 아무렇지도 않게 생각하고, 데이트하고, 트리플하고, 아이를 방지하는, 나는 지금 그 결과를 작게 해야 하는 처지에 있다고 합니다. 선반이 있어야 한다고 생각하지만, 어떻게든 아 여기까지 고통스럽습니다. 왜 그랬을까? 만약 피임법만 사용했다면, 나는 이 고통을 느낄 것이라고 느낄 것이라고 할 것입니다. 나를 사랑하지 않고, 나를 진심으로 아끼지 않습니다.

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