Feel suicidal all the time

[TheBirdMan]

I had a CTB attempt a few weeks ago, I messed up something minor in the process and woke up. Surprisingly no long term effects but I didn't feel like trying again even.

I realize I can't function anymore. I don't want to work and I'm frequently thinking about CTB at any instance I'm even remotely stressed. I'm with my parents in their home and they want me to start work again, and I just… can't seem to care. Their relentless insistence is making me realize I can't function anymore in society.

I'm thinking about driving to my apartment 8 hours away in the middle of the night and refilling my nitrogen tank and trying again. I don't know why I'm talking here. I think I want to talk to someone and maybe figure anything out. I feel like I'm a rather impulsive person so maybe talking to the internet strangers can help.

 

[redsendtend]

I had a CTB attempt a few weeks ago, I messed up something minor in the process and woke up. Surprisingly no long term effects but I didn't feel like trying again even.

I realize I can't function anymore. I don't want to work and I'm frequently thinking about CTB at any instance I'm even remotely stressed. I'm with my parents in their home and they want me to start work again, and I just… can't seem to care. Their relentless insistence is making me realize I can't function anymore in society.

I'm thinking about driving to my apartment 8 hours away in the middle of the night and refilling my nitrogen tank and trying again. I don't know why I'm talking here. I think I want to talk to someone and maybe figure anything out. I feel like I'm a rather impulsive person so maybe talking to the internet strangers can help.

You could dm me, or reply here if privacy isn't a concern

 

[TheBirdMan]

I didn't expect such a quick response, that's mighty kind of you. I actually don't know how to DM. But either way works, I don't really care about privacy too much.

You could dm me, or reply here if privacy isn't a concern

I didn't expect such a quick response, that's mighty kind of you. I actually don't know how to DM. But either way works, I don't really care about privacy too much. Barely figuring this whole forum stuff I suppose.

 

[gunmetalblue]

Sadly your post count isn't high enough to be able to receive or send dm's right now. (It's a little over 25 needed I think).
But I'm sorry you are going through this hard time fellow bird admirer. I hope you can find at least some solace here. I wish you peace.