feel so small

[zizzou]

Another day willingly wasted drinking, smoking, doing nothing. God I feel so small, so paper thin, like the smallest breeze could break me a new. I know I have it relatively easy compared to you guys but this is life is all I know and it's too much for me.

too hard to live, too hard to die, too hard to survive. what now?

 

[MyShadow]

Couldn't sleep well last night so used that as an excuse to sleep in.
Woke up depressed and unmotivated, so used that as an excuse to lay around and do nothing.
Half the day is behind me and I am still laying on my bed.
I've been reading and posting on this forum and doom scrolling for over three hours.

I understand how you're feeling and it's awful.

 

[zizzou]

Couldn't sleep well last night so used that as an excuse to sleep in.
Woke up depressed and unmotivated, so used that as an excuse to lay around and do nothing.
Half the day is behind me and I am still laying on my bed.
I've been reading and posting on this forum and doom scrolling for over three hours.

I understand how you're feeling and it's awful.

Sometimes I wonder if willpower is all it takes to get out of this. Or maybe I should try harder. But fuck it I want to die

 

[MyShadow]

Sometimes I wonder if willpower is all it takes to get out of this. Or maybe I should try harder. But fuck it I want to die

I wish willpower could help me overcome the symptoms of depressions or the crushing anxiety.

 

[zizzou]

I wish willpower could help me overcome the symptoms of depressions or the crushing anxiety.

I suppose if that's all it took like people say this site wouldnt exist. I wish you better days