Feel like giving up

[goodoldnoname923]

I keep trying the CO method but I genuinely feel like I can't get it right,i feel like giving it up and trying another method but I genuinely don't know which or what method to do and i wish i knew

I keep looking back at old messages of my best friend and they're all gone changed or moved and no one believes me and its driving me crazy and I can't handle it anymore i need to go and i cant

 

[EyesOfNight]

"Carbon monoxide poisoning typically occurs from breathing in carbon monoxide (CO) at excessive levels. Long-term complications may include chronic fatigue, trouble with memory, and movement problems."

Carbon monoxide poisoning - Wikipedia

en.m.wikipedia.org

This could be an explanation for the messages given the amount of attempts you've had in such a short time.
Alternatively it's just software errors or unknown features.
Or someone indeed messed with the messages.
Those messages seem important to you and I'm sorry that they aren't what they were. I can only imagine what it feels like to lose something like this.

I'm really sorry that you can't find peace. I would recommend that you take a break and adjust your plans.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

What failed exactly? I'm sorry it's so difficult for you to achieve this method.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

What failed exactly? I'm sorry it's so difficult for you to achieve this method.

I'm not sure idk if its air leaks or not having enough CO

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm not sure idk if its air leaks or not having enough CO

The only way to know for sure is to use a CO meter (10k ppm). Maybe it's even the charcoal still burning too "good". For fast pass out followed by death you need 8k+ better 10k+ PPM.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

Where

The only way to know for sure is to use a CO meter (10k ppm). Maybe it's even the charcoal still burning too "good". For fast pass out followed by death you need 8k+ better 10k+ PPM.

would i get a meter from?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Where

would i get a meter from?

Amazon, Ebay. But they are kinda expensive, depending on how much funds you would want / are able to spend. Make sure it's for 10k+ PPM (parts per million). I think prices start from 300-400 $.