Venting Fear

[teqeri]

I've been running away from my problems for a long time. I've run away from people who I don't know that well yet; I've run away from people I have known for years. I've run away from good opportunities, and after all of this I've tried to run away from the guilt of having ran at all.

I'm not in a terrible place right now. I have hope towards my life at the moment, and I want to live and grow! But currently, I can't face reality and stop running. The world scares me so much. I don't feel like I have the strength to look past my fear and live with my whole heart.

I can accept that these fears are so strong in my life, because I've listened to them for such a long time at this point. I can accept that they are also just weightless thoughts, and they might not have much to any meaning... But the fear is so paralyzing. To fail, accept my place below my fear, and acknowledge its potential credibility makes me feel better, if just for a moment.


Will I one day break this loop ?

It's not very fun living like this....

 

[Apathy79]

Relatable. Acknowledging the fear's credibility feels better in the moment because we don't have to face it. But it's worse in the long run. Running from it is kind of like eating ice cream. It's the absolute bees knees for 10 minutes. The emotion is quelled. Life is OK. But if you keep choosing it often enough, it ruins your life. At some point the only way out is to face the fear. The annoying part is we're already pretty sure the reality of facing it will be way less daunting than the fear made it seem in imagination. But even that knowledge doesn't necessarily help. It's about feeling the fear and acting anyway, not trying to get rid of it beforehand. And for some reason that seems harder for us than most.