Help Fear of torture / suffering

[requiescat]

I've wanted to commit suicide by cutting myself for awhile now, but I'm scared of survival and the pain beforehand. I don't know much about medical to know where to cut myself, when to cut myself, and how to tell my loved ones beforehand so they don't blame themselves. I've always had the fear of suffering the pain before dying whenever wanting to cut myself, always wanting to; but no courage to. Most of the knives I have aren't that sharp, so I'm also afraid it won't work.

Most of the time whenever I get close to cutting myself, I always chicken out because of these fears. I've talked to someone about my suicidal thoughts, but they only seem to want to help me recover from it, and keep me alive. Rather than what I want, to die.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Cutting is not only cruel and painful it's also very unreliable to succeed. There is a Suicie Resource Compilation linked in the sticks threads. There are way better methods if you have the true desire to CTB.

If you still want to bleed out you should look into the method Seppuku, which was done as a ritual CTB method by ninja warriors. I don't recommend stabbing/slitting at all.

I wish you all the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also fear experiencing much worse agony, it's absolutely horrifying how a human is capable of suffering so extremely. Just that is enough to make the peace of non-existence sound so incredibly appealing to me.

 

[requiescat]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Cutting is not only cruel and painful it's also very unreliable to succeed. There is a Suicie Resource Compilation linked in the sticks threads. There are way better methods if you have the true desire to CTB.

If you still want to bleed out you should look into the method Seppuku, which was done as a ritual CTB method by ninja warriors. I don't recommend stabbing/slitting at all.

I wish you all the best.

Thank you! This helps me alot, I'll do my research into Seppuku and the compilation.

Thanks, my friend. I wish you the best.

 

[thekingofthabeat]

Been there done that. Its not like the movies you are safer with full hang or you will end whit an almost not funtional arm.