greatgooglymoogly
Member
- Dec 1, 2023
- 79
I'm so worn out of even the process of suicide and thinking about it at all. I took a decently long break from planning and considering it but I still have always intended to go through with it. I'm just so tired of everything. I know I want to kill myself and have nowhere to go in real life, but I still don't feel like I even belong on this forum.
I can't emotionally handle rewriting my suicide notes again. I wrote them months ago, foolishly backed out of my attempt, I don't have the energy or sensitivity to write and say all the things I should. There's just too much and I don't even begin to explain the pain you've hidden for years from a family with totally normal happy lives. I think about it a lot and I do believe suicide is selfish but I just don't have the capacity to consider how this is affecting others anymore, I just want it to stop
I can't emotionally handle rewriting my suicide notes again. I wrote them months ago, foolishly backed out of my attempt, I don't have the energy or sensitivity to write and say all the things I should. There's just too much and I don't even begin to explain the pain you've hidden for years from a family with totally normal happy lives. I think about it a lot and I do believe suicide is selfish but I just don't have the capacity to consider how this is affecting others anymore, I just want it to stop
