Family & Suicide

[merebaisdead]

The only reason I haven't ctb'd by now is because of my family. I love them so much and I can bear to leave them with a hole in their hearts. Then again I wonder, what if I didn't have a loving family? Would I be gone?

This pain that I'm experiencing is so vast that'll counteract any love that they can possibly shroud me with, but again, I don't want to leave my family heartbroken. I feel awful for even saying this.

Does anyone feel the same way?

 

[Rational man]

The difference between us is i despise my narcissistic family of abusers but even they're sociopathy isnt the reason i would ctb. Illness is. You need to think long and hard because it sounds like there'd be loving and no one can predict how loved ones react on this issue. Take care.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

There is a term for this kind of situation: zugzwang.

Basically every option sucks and there's no way around it.

Someone's going to have to suffer no matter what you do.

Is it fair that it's you? Of course not.

Seems that the optimal way to resolve this situation would be for them to let you go.

But I know that's a tall order to ask them to acknowledge that. They have to come to it on their own.

To that end: how much do they know of your struggles? How sympathetic are they to your desire of CTB?

If only they could know that just like love doesn't cure cancer or any other disease or ailment of the body, it can't necessarily cure any disease or ailment of the mind and soul.