Help Fake and Attempt for Help?

[LastAcrobat]

I've told other that they should try every other possible option before CTB and I feel it would be hypocritical for me if I didn't do the same, but now I'm thinking there is a limit to that.

A part of me wants to purposely fail an attempt in a way that hopefully won't permanently hurt me, or something similar, just to maybe… maybe get someone to listen to it as a final cry for help? I mean "worst case scenario" I just CTB and I mean, that's kinda the goal in the end anyways lol.

I don't know if it's worth trying this last cry or not? It does seem overly risky with little to no reward…

 

[jazzcat621]

If your unable to get the attention you need without attempting suicide, chances are you probably wont get it after. Coming from someone who was caught during an attempt. All I got was more anger, shame, and trouble :(

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

You don't have to risk your life for a cry for help. In February after a failed attempt I decided to give life one last shot, and had family call Police/EMS on me as I was incredibly drunk and felt like killing myself, but in the same hand wanted to 'try' to stay one last time. Long story short, I ended up in a treatment facility which didn't do shit for me, outside of encourage me to never reach out for help again. Although during my time spent in the actual hospital, I did have a variety of sitters and nurses that provided me space to share bits of my story and perspective, which was very cathartic and I'm grateful for that.

I don't mean to discourage you seeking help by sharing my experience, everyone's experience is different and I'm a firm believer that you should exhaust damn near all your options before going through with CTB. Why not try one last time? You said so yourself, you believe someone should try every other possible option first, so be consistent in your belief and extend that attitude to your own life

 

[m3nhera]

I've told other that they should try every other possible option before CTB and I feel it would be hypocritical for me if I didn't do the same, but now I'm thinking there is a limit to that.

A part of me wants to purposely fail an attempt in a way that hopefully won't permanently hurt me, or something similar, just to maybe… maybe get someone to listen to it as a final cry for help? I mean "worst case scenario" I just CTB and I mean, that's kinda the goal in the end anyways lol.

I don't know if it's worth trying this last cry or not? It does seem overly risky with little to no reward…

Because the world sucks this probably won't go how you planned, but I totally understand this. Normal people would judge if they knew it was a "fake" attempt but honestly I've always fantasized about someone catching me right before I kill myself, and actually caring and giving me a hug. I've fantasized about sitting there waiting to be caught and probably not actually doing it, just wanting to be seen. But I've never actually tried that for many reasons and don't want to traumatize anyone. But it's so comforting to think about, but be warned by all these replies that this type of thing usually only works in fantasy. If real life turned out how you want, none of us would be on this website.

 

[mistysmile966]

Nobody cares, especially those who supposed to. I sent an email expressing my CTB interest and mentioned this site. Might have been a veiled cry for help, but mainly to let these devils know what they are doing to me.

Police came (no surprise) and things became worse(not much of a surprise there either). Not the first police time police came. All the times they came and said they would help, the point was to prevent from happening what they ended up causing and among other bad things.

The police being involved made me cut my wrists and increased by CTB craving, as much as I don't want to resort to this, life is leaving me no choice.

I wish I knew more about SN and continued my research instead of letting those officers lead me on with false hope. I regret not CTB when I should have.

People (especially my family and so called friend) know about my tendencies, but that doesn't change the way the treat me, if anything they judge me and treat me worse making me crave CTBing even more.

 

[bpdwriter]

Maybe slightly different take than others in this post because I was more on the recovery side until today -- yes, please exhaust all other options. It kinda did work for me in the past... in a way.

I was severely depressed and dropped out of undergrad -- like I wouldn't leave my room, eat, answer calls etc. I thought that's how I'd CTB at the time or catch something that would eventually end me.

My family is deeply religious and not very mental health conscious, but somehow, seeing me in that state... I think they finally got it. They actually understood that I just didn't want to keep going. From that point on, my dad never pushes me to do things anymore (oddly enough that helped me get my life together more) and my brothers would make sure to check in on me and never ask me to do more than just live.

Of course it's not perfect, but I do think that once someone passes a lot of people wonder what they could have done better. I don't see anything wrong with giving people the chance to try. You literally lose nothing.

However, I would say rather than an attempt, I think maybe a plan to actually show people that you're connected with life. So like no more pretending to be okay, etc. CTB attempts can affect trust and stuff, but I think people are more understanding leading up to it? I think