Venting failing college

[nooneyouknow]

I have no one to tell. I mean I've tried I've just gotten nothing in response that even feels like its any type of acknowledgement. But Im about to fail out of college I am horrified. This is the last week for my one class that I've been trying to do well in and is the most important in staying. He has yet to release test grades and we have another one tomorrow. I tried so hard. SO unbelievably hard. I don't think I can handle this. I've been in a state of paralyzing anxiety and the closer this week comes to an end, the worse it gets. I'm at my limit and I just keep ignoring it for the sake of . something. I dont know. Maybe I just don't care to acknowledge it but soon enough I'll have nothing to do but acknowledge it unwillingly. I'm so tired. If I fail out that's it. I'm done and I have nothing after this. I'm not going to end up like my family. it truly is this degree or death. I hesitate to die. my friend would be ruined and I love her and I couldn't fix it if I'm gone. but I don't see another option. I don't have anything else going for me. I am going to die I think.

 

[boyafraid]

Damm I'm so sorry you're going through all of this alone. College is really hard and stressful. Sometimes I wake up thinking I have an assignment due on Canvas but it's been a year since I dropped out lol.