Failed SN..

[Hashe20]

Today I came closer than I ever have to ending my life with SN, I had everything ready and planned for weeks, but when the moment came I couldn't go through with it. I don't really know how to feel about that. Part of me feels weak for backing out, part of me wonders if I'm just afraid to die, and another part of me is just completely overwhelmed.

My life it's falling apart. I'm around 200k in debt, I'm soon to be homeless, and my family and girlfriend has abandoned me.

I guess I'm posting because I don't want to sit alone with this. Has anyone else failed like this?

 

[Bitter Almonds]

Yeah, I think you'll hear a bunch like this on the forums. I tried PSH and couldn't get it to work. Before I joined this site, I tried to cut my wrists. also didn't work.

Now I'm just trapped in the middle of wanting to leave and wanting to stay.

 

[FF777]

SI (survival instinct) is always a lot stronger than you anticipate it to be.. CTB usually feels completely unnatural.. so what you experienced isn't uncommon at all..