Failed partial 8 times idk what now

[MrDarkness]

So for context my partial setup would be the rope above me ofc, and me kneeling down like I was praying, I'd be able to pass out but I'd always wake up due to SI
I'm gonna get a job now so I can buy fent and od on it, a lot easier to get then sn, plus injecting means I wouldn't throw it up, I'd just pass out. My life is a mess, I'm still thinking of full suspension, I'll take some alcohol some sleeping pills and weed to numb the pain, then do it. Fuck my life is a nightmare

 

[Gaga786]

So for context my partial setup would be the rope above me ofc, and me kneeling down like I was praying, I'd be able to pass out but I'd always wake up due to SI
I'm gonna get a job now so I can buy fent and od on it, a lot easier to get then sn, plus injecting means I wouldn't throw it up, I'd just pass out. My life is a mess, I'm still thinking of full suspension, I'll take some alcohol some sleeping pills and weed to numb the pain, then do it. Fuck my life is a nightmare

I'm sorry for all that you have to endure. I really wish it was easy to leave this prison-like-existence.

 

[MrDarkness]

I'm sorry for all that you have to endure. I really wish it was easy to leave this prison-like-existence.

Honestly, in some ways it feels like and prison and some ways it doesn't, I find my mind to be the biggest prison as it never stops racing

 

[Gaga786]

Honestly, in some ways it feels like and prison and some ways it doesn't, I find my mind to be the biggest prison as it never stops racing

Yeah, I understand.It is quite tough and exhausting

 

[day]

Sorry to hear about the SI and if I can be of any more help I will try my hardest. Best wishes to you my friend.

 

[CW36]

This is why partial is pointless. You end up spending so much time trying to perfect a technique, and yet all I here is SI stopping attempt after attempt. Ironically, you end up suffering more than if you'd gone full in the first place. Yes people succeed with partial, but most attempts fail. Why keep going against the odds? The reality may not suit, but if you really want out, then I'm afraid it's best to face it.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you failed so many attempts. It's so painful. It's so incredibly inhumane how difficult it is to exit this world because no peaceful and easily accessible methods are available. I hope you find peace.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I give up with hanging, need to try SN first

 

[アホペンギン]

Partial isn't an easy method. Granted, people succeed but its very hard and quite unreliable, you may fall out of the noose and suffer brain damage. Also SI can be a very significant factor as to why the failure rate is so high. I'm sorry your SI is preventing you from succeeding, especially after trying 8 times. Its good that you're deciding to buy fent, its much better than partial in my opinion.

 

[020x]

Partial hanging is indeed very hard to succeed. That's why I always recommend people to practice it first if that's the method they prefer to use.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I'm sorry to hear you have been struggling so much @MrDarkness. I've been there with partial. it's impossible for me too.

 

[numbed one]

This is why partial is pointless. You end up spending so much time trying to perfect a technique, and yet all I here is SI stopping attempt after attempt. Ironically, you end up suffering more than if you'd gone full in the first place. Yes people succeed and with partial, but most attempts fail. Why keep going against the odds? The reality may not suit, but if you really want out, then I'm afraid it's best to face it.

Hey i can't tell from which country are you ?

 

[XenoPyo]

Hello, have you looked into CO method? It seems like a good bet if you can get a location and materials.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really hate how it's so difficult to finally cease existing, it's inhumane to me how people even have to resort to barbaric methods like hanging in the first place and cannot just peacefully fall into an eternal sleep instead. It must be so awful failing it so many times, but anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[Worndown]

You could take the rope you have, tie it to something higher and step off a chair. With 8 partial attempts, it should be fairly easy.

 

[Aloneisbestforme]

Hanging in general just seems so hard to do.

I am sorry are you force to live through this hell with all of these failed attempts.
Hopefully you can get what you want soon to get true freedom

 

[chop]

I'm so sorry you still have to go through pain here, I wish you were able to leave this horrible place with a choice rather then having to do stuff like this.

 

[martinso67]

I know how you feel (somewhat). failed again (already several times) trying that method when I had covid before about 6 months. I thought I had more success, because I had trouble breathing and was tired. My height is the biggest reason why I cannot lose fully my consciousness.

It makes me so angry and depressed having no access to a method. It's my body. I don't believe this bs about democracy and freedom. xD lol

 

[Huggs]

Failing attempts is awful, I'm sorry you've been experiencing that. I've practiced partial a lot and also have found no success. I know how much of a living hell life can be day after day. I wish I could take all that pain away.

 

[MrDarkness]

You could take the rope you have, tie it to something higher and step off a chair. With 8 partial attempts, it should be fairly easy.

I might at this point