I had a few drinks, some medicine, and a sleep pill to relax. I forgot that I would likely fall asleep before being able to execute my bridge job. I was very emotional and in distress that night. Still hate it here.
That was several weeks ago and in that time I got a second job and stopped talking to a crazy member of my family who was causing a lot of stress. I was trying to move pass these feelings, but life is meaningless and boring to say the least.
I hope to save up for a gun now. Getting SN seems unlikely in the US. With my new job I drive pass that bridge every day now. Ironic. I hope to be gone before my birthday this summer. I'll continue reading here to refine the gun method or find another way out. Life is a prison I need to escape.
That was several weeks ago and in that time I got a second job and stopped talking to a crazy member of my family who was causing a lot of stress. I was trying to move pass these feelings, but life is meaningless and boring to say the least.
I hope to save up for a gun now. Getting SN seems unlikely in the US. With my new job I drive pass that bridge every day now. Ironic. I hope to be gone before my birthday this summer. I'll continue reading here to refine the gun method or find another way out. Life is a prison I need to escape.
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