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Thread starterbillie
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billie! so good to see u again. for a few minutes just now i couldn't help thinking that i must've been dreaming somehow.
Im sorry things didn't work out for u. btw, how did your meeting with therapist go? if u feel uncertainty about your plan there's no need to force yourself through it. either you'll face too much resistance from yourself (such as si) or there's the possibility ppl around u will suspect that u'll take your life. srry i'm having an emotional rush now anyway it's so good to see u!
I'll spend my day outside today and I'll listen if u need to talk :) You're not annoying me, and you're not traumatizing me. u have no idea how much we miss u here
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Michi_Violeta, cursedlife, deadbidaylight and 3 others
I'm sorry it didn't work—and I mean that. A failed attempt isn't just frustrating, it's exhausting. Physically, emotionally. It takes something out of you, and you don't need shame piled on top of that.
I'm glad you're safe enough to be here right now. And if you're going to try again, I hope you're taking time to review what went wrong.
Please don't carry shame for surviving. You don't owe anyone an explanation. And even if you're only here for a little while, we're glad to have you.
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opheliaoveragain, Lo$t95, Michi_Violeta and 2 others
Hey Billie! I'm really glad I'm seeing your messages again! I'm really so sorry about what has happened. I couldn't stop thinking about you today at work. I hope you find your peace soon friend
I'm sorry that your attempt failed. I read in chat that you did not vomit? I wonder what went wrong then, I thought SN was basically a guaranteed successful ctb as long as you did not vomit.
I am really really sorry the attempt didn't work out how you wanted it too :< if you decide to do another, I hope it works so you don't have to suffer anymore.
I cant imagine the feeling that you are feeling right now. I am going through with the SN process tonight so im wondering how it felt. If you are able to share details please let us know. it would be really helpful for all of us. What went wrong? Were you found? Did it just not work and you woke up? You are in no rush to answer these questions so feel free to take your time and do what you want. Did you feel any pain?
I'm sorry that you weren't able to achieve the peace you were searching for this time. Please be kind to yourself as you navigate the many emotions you're likely feeling right now.
Although I haven't personally connected with you, it seems very apparent that you've made an indelible mark on this community, so I am glad you're back, even if only temporarily.
Give yourself some grace, and try to give some self love if you're able to. You deserve that and likely need it right now more than ever. Welcome back, and please take care.
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