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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
622
unfortunately my attempt failed but i ordered more sn and will try again soon and hopefully it will really work this time

please don't ask me for sn sources i won't give you any sn sources
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
205
I'm sorry your attempt failed, can I ask what went wrong?
 
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plan c

plan c

My last resort.
Nov 8, 2022
184
billie! so good to see u again. for a few minutes just now i couldn't help thinking that i must've been dreaming somehow.

Im sorry things didn't work out for u. btw, how did your meeting with therapist go? if u feel uncertainty about your plan there's no need to force yourself through it. either you'll face too much resistance from yourself (such as si) or there's the possibility ppl around u will suspect that u'll take your life. srry i'm having an emotional rush now anyway it's so good to see u!

I'll spend my day outside today and I'll listen if u need to talk :) You're not annoying me, and you're not traumatizing me. u have no idea how much we miss u here
 
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SNastablesalt

SNastablesalt

I am the face of loves rage
Oct 6, 2023
194
unfortunately my attempt failed but i ordered more sn and will try again soon and hopefully it will really work this time

please don't ask me for sn sources i won't give you any sn sources
im glad youre still here, billie. wishing u peace :heart:
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,329
I'm sorry your attempt failed. Don't be too hard to yourself. 🫂 :heart: 🫂

Would you share why your attempt failed? Did someone interfere?
 
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gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
494
I'm sorry it didn't work—and I mean that. A failed attempt isn't just frustrating, it's exhausting. Physically, emotionally. It takes something out of you, and you don't need shame piled on top of that.

I'm glad you're safe enough to be here right now. And if you're going to try again, I hope you're taking time to review what went wrong.

Please don't carry shame for surviving. You don't owe anyone an explanation. And even if you're only here for a little while, we're glad to have you.
 
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ImNotReal

ImNotReal

Don't wake me up
Jan 18, 2025
224
Hey Billie! I'm really glad I'm seeing your messages again! I'm really so sorry about what has happened. I couldn't stop thinking about you today at work. I hope you find your peace soon friend
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
Good to see you again billie, sending love and hugs.
 
StrugglingSienna

StrugglingSienna

Suicidal Trans Girl
Mar 16, 2025
181
I'm sorry that your attempt failed. I read in chat that you did not vomit? I wonder what went wrong then, I thought SN was basically a guaranteed successful ctb as long as you did not vomit.

I hope your next attempt goes better for you ❤️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,962
I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,223
Welcome back billie. I hope you're alright.
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
I am really really sorry the attempt didn't work out how you wanted it too :< if you decide to do another, I hope it works so you don't have to suffer anymore.
 
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spenshart

spenshart

Forever in the Abyss
Mar 7, 2025
46
I cant imagine the feeling that you are feeling right now. I am going through with the SN process tonight so im wondering how it felt. If you are able to share details please let us know. it would be really helpful for all of us. What went wrong? Were you found? Did it just not work and you woke up? You are in no rush to answer these questions so feel free to take your time and do what you want. Did you feel any pain?
 
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Depressed2

Member
Oct 25, 2024
42
unfortunately my attempt failed but i ordered more sn and will try again soon and hopefully it will really work this time

please don't ask me for sn sources i won't give you any sn sources
Good to see you <3 I hope you stay with us <3
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deadbidaylight

deadbidaylight

And the sun will set for you
Feb 27, 2025
535
I'm sorry that you weren't able to achieve the peace you were searching for this time. Please be kind to yourself as you navigate the many emotions you're likely feeling right now.

Although I haven't personally connected with you, it seems very apparent that you've made an indelible mark on this community, so I am glad you're back, even if only temporarily.

Give yourself some grace, and try to give some self love if you're able to. You deserve that and likely need it right now more than ever. Welcome back, and please take care. ❤️
 
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waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
432
i'm struggling to find words to express how glad i am to see you again ❤
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,196
hope you're alright as can be, considering. echoing what others said above, def give everything a once over when you get more sn.
 

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