iamalreadydead
Student
- Nov 25, 2022
- 139
When I think about my parents it's often in the context of fantasizing about revenge and beating them and abusing them but sometimes I feel this sense of sadness wash over me usually when I think about dying whether it be my own death or theirs, I want to be held by my mother & grandmother and i wish my dad can pass away peacefully and happy
It makes me want to die before them and I can't really tell you why, I guess to circumvent me experiencing their deaths. It just feels agonizingly terrifying. I know when it's really time to go there's not gonna be an other side or reconciliation or seeing them again.
I feel trapped between life and death
It makes me want to die before them and I can't really tell you why, I guess to circumvent me experiencing their deaths. It just feels agonizingly terrifying. I know when it's really time to go there's not gonna be an other side or reconciliation or seeing them again.
I feel trapped between life and death
