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terminaldreamer

terminaldreamer

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Apr 3, 2026
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6 months ago I was in a very very terrible break up. Well, it started 6 months ago and was just a long drawn out agonizing experience.

I have had major depression on and off for 10 years, and I have experienced very low points before, but this completely destroyed me, like an entirely new unimaginable axis of pain and suffering opened up. Cheating, deception, humiliation, betrayal, so many horrible horrible things to go through, while I was already dealing with a lot of problems in life. And yet my heart is still so overwhelmingly attached, I cannot move on, I cannot go 5 minutes without thinking of her.

These past months have agonized me to a point of exhaustion, and the thought of continuing and enduring more truly terrifies me. I am so so sad.
 
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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
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I wrap my arms around you and give you a huge hug.

I was married once and she loved slot machines much more than me, and I am at your side always.

We are ALL in this together, you ARE family to me and a good friend and always remember that there is Karma.

At the age of 70, I have seen Karma be played out over and over again.

Lots of hugs, heartfelt caring thoughts and you are a precious soul.

Walter
 
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BlazingBob

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Oct 28, 2021
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I've been through it. I know all about limerance. When I was a teenager back in the 80s I caught my gf in bed with someone else. I got in a fight with the guy and got arrested. In the 90s I had a gf cheat on me with a coworker. It's horrible. I couldn't breathe. I would vomit. I was obsessed. I kept visualizing it. It did eventually get better albeit slowly. It's absolute hell on earth when you're in the middle of it and feels like the pain will never end. I also have horrendous depression which makes things a million times worse. This was way before social media. I can't imagine checking out their profiles and possibly seeing them with someone else. I'm sorry you're going through this😞
 
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