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Anonymoususer1234

Anonymoususer1234

Experienced
Apr 13, 2023
205
Reply with a poem of your choice, one that expresses how you're feeling at the moment. It can be an original or something someone else wrote. Doesn't matter!
 
ultraviolence

ultraviolence

death date: 04/14/24
Nov 5, 2023
29
A Paper/ A Person/ A Promise by Dr. Earl Reum

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it.

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
and the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
and the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly.

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
and he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.
 
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piddincir

piddincir

Student
Nov 6, 2023
167
I wife recently took her own life 5 weeks ago, I used to write her love poems when we first met, but I wrote her one final poem

My Final Poem

What might have been will never be,
But you were always it for me,
I feel it now that you are gone
No one left to keep me strong

I miss you than I can say
From the moment you took your life that day
A life without you I cannot bare
And more than I would even dare

I wish I could have stole your pain
For I knew I could take the strain
An relieved you of your daily strife
I tried so hard to save your life

But now I know I cannot live
I have no life or love to give
For what we share was just too great
my best friend my true soulmate

For all the wealth or love or bliss
I'd trade it all for one last kiss
Alas, for us no Time Machine
Left with just this dreamless dream

I cannot live this life alone
For you were my forever home
And all the moments that were shared
I know to us we always cared

I wish I could say goodbye
For each night I cry and cry
Longing for your embrace
To see that smile upon your face

I tried so hard and yet I failed
But join you now amongst the clouds
My wife to me you'll be
Eternally rob bear and Lizzie
 
pseudo_pseu

pseudo_pseu

Member
Feb 22, 2023
82
Some random vaguely relevant haikus from my collection:

Survival instincts
Will no longer wear the clothes
Of rational thoughts
I'll stay in my brain
Forever and ever with
Myself and myself
Cathartic decay
Feared the storm for the last time
An earthworm's delight
Tranquil corpse rotting
Shall fear and hurt nevermore
A blowfly's delight
"You don't hate Mondays
You hate capitalism"
I hate sentience
"Your skin's not paper"
But my life's not a pickle
Nor is it money
Black holes, waterfalls
A beautiful universe
Nothing organic
Oh, to be a child
Reincarnation is real
Watch, I'll show you now
 
LoiteringClouds

LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
3,625
Reply with a poem of your choice, one that expresses how you're feeling at the moment. It can be an original or something someone else wrote. Doesn't matter!
Hello @Anonymoususer1234,
This thread is what I've long waited for!
Thank you for creating this place -
For me, this is amazing grace!

I'm so sorry that you can't write,
Stories and poems anymore. [1]
I pray, may your pen regain might -
I think it is worth fighting for.

Now I can get on my soapbox,
Though my thought is unorthodox.
Now, they are not I need to hide -
Glory to Sanctioned Suicide!

References:
[1]
 
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CocoToxBase

CocoToxBase

Suffering
Jan 8, 2024
183
This one I wrote a year ago

(Verse 1)
Society's ignorance got me holdin' my breath,
They don't get it, living on the edge of death.
A missing person in a world so blind,
They only see the smile, not the chaos in my mind.

Bottled up pain, hurtin' the ones I love
Pushin' 'em away, like pushin' comes to shove
They say at least try, but i can't wait to die,
This emotional journey ain't no lie

(Chorus)
Suicidal thoughts, they be weighin' me down,
But I won't let 'em make me wear a crown.
These scars remind me that I'm built to heal
I'm stronger than these thoughts man
I gotta keep it real

(Verse 2)
They call me an attention seeker, what a pain,
But they'll never understand the battles in my brain.
I wish people understood, my pain is true,
Emotional unstable, I'm bruised, black and blue.

Police see me at my lowest, looking right through,
No compassion, no care, no love that's true.
Jump of the bridge, escape from my demons,
But that ain't the answer, gotta find other meanings.

(Chorus)
Suicidal thoughts, they be weighin' me down,
But I won't let 'em make me wear a crown.
These scars remind me that I'm built to heal
I'm stronger than these thoughts man
I gotta keep it real

(Bridge)
Hanging by a tree, but I refuse to let it claim me
Jump off that bridge? Nah, I won't play in that misery
Death by misadventure, they label it so,
But I won't let myself succumb to that low.

(Verse 3)
Can't heal from my trauma, my heart's in a mess
PTSD got me feelin' so much stress
Flashbacks haunt me, they won't let me rest
Deep wounds reopen, a never-ending test

Jump off that bridge, escape this pain,
Death by misadventure, my soul's insane,
Professionals neglecting they don't really care,
Hospital's a nightmare, only trauma in the air.

(Chorus)
Suicidal thoughts, they be weighin' me down,
But I won't let 'em make me wear a crown.
These scars remind me that I'm built to heal
I'm stronger than these thoughts man
I gotta keep it real
 
dysthymia

dysthymia

the dead regret nothing
Dec 24, 2023
88
94% Ammonium Nitrate 6% fuel oil intertwined,
Notoriously hard to ignite
But has the power to level blocks when detonated

I may not be fragile nor sensitive,
Nor am I hostile or insensitive,
Hard to comprehend, hard to break,
Waiting for a disaster,
Waiting for the perfect moment to detonate.

I'm not tough as stone,
I'm tough as ANFO,
Won't explode if stressed,
But would if pressed.
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,017
Drained, stuck and all alone
Trying to find some kind of way
Dreading next morning's dawn
Day after a day after a day.
 
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fleshgarden

fleshgarden

Member
Mar 15, 2023
80
one I wrote for a song a while ago

I want to reconstruct my shape
rearrange my bones and wash away,
renew my mind, then looking at myself
I'd know what I'm missing inside
I feel close and far away at the same time
Trying to break me
Now it's so familiar to my mind
Bound forever but i've never felt so free
 
T

The Ninth God

Member
Feb 8, 2024
40
My kind of topic, wonderful. Writing is lovely and really helps express what you feel, like music and drawing do.

Chaos lulls the mind
Starts to falters, then gives in
To madness, to bliss
 
LoiteringClouds

LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
3,625
I'm beyond repair,
And not good enough.
Life is so unfair -
And always so rough.

It has never spare,
Me from pain and stuff.
Punishment is there,
Whenever I fluff.

Gloom is in the air -
Peace isn't anywhere.

(Thank you for reading 🙏
Today I'm struggling.)
 

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