Explain what your SS name means to you

[vercabow]

just some dumb name i came up with because i think names that start with V sound nice.

 

[moonlight gate]

it's from the 1997 melodic black metal album: enter the moonlight gate. from Swedish band, Lord Belial.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I'll be extremely happy when I finally make it to the shadows in hell.

 

[kitia973]

I never actually had an English name (only a Chinese pinyin one), so I just made one up for the site.

 

[Ariii]

Well its my name, which looking back, maybe wasnt the best choice for a suicide fourm, but whatever, i doubt anyone from my real life will ever recognize me

 

[bigbang33]

I love big bang theory. 3 is my lucky number. One 3 didn't seem to be enough.

 

[JesiBel]

It's my real first and last name lol (half of them)

Harpy= A manga character that I like (Harpy Valentine)

 

[trashhologram]

Trash Holograms is a song by Crystal Castles, one of my favourite bands.

I love MDMA

Haha who doesn't?

 

[Murasa]

"Ringo" means apple, I like apples. "Ringo", that's the name of a moon rabbit who cooks mochi, I like mochi. "Ringo"/Golden, that's the lockseed based on the forbidden fruit and has knight motif, I love knights and is one of my favorite collectibles in all the figure lines where it is included. I would have loved to get one from any line, they are all super articulated, so they are perfect for stop motion. Uh, I think I got a little sidetracked from the question, I just really like apples and golden, shiny shiny.

 

[beyondeternal]

the name itself means nothing, I thought of it as a nickname by which I cannot be recognized, because on most sites I register under the same, other nickname, which my friends and some other people know.

eternal calmness is what I am seeking for

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

It is a song name. I do not like the song that much, but it was the first thing that I saw when I opened my music library when I made this account, so I chose it.

 

[Odwin]

Its odd that I keep winnin'.

 

[yearofluigi]

Nintendo lost half a billion dollars during their Year of Luigi promotion and I just thought that was really funny. And in general I really like Luigi cause he's a silly little guy.

I chose my name before the whole UHC CEO thing and I think it's funny that my name has kinda taken on an another meaning. With all the buzz around Luigi Mangione's trial it kinda is the year of Luigi :P

 

[Sunü (素女)]

I based mine on a character that I intended to roleplay as, and that character's name is based on the ancient Chinese goddess: Sunü. I thought it'd be a good reference since my roleplaying partner was also a reference to the Huangdi, the fabled Yellow Emperor. In the roleplay, we planned on marrying the two to unite both families and increase both their powers. He'd be the husband that would slowly lose his sanity from work, and she'd be his comfort through it. I also had other characters that would try to complicate it and backstab each other for power. It was fun to daydream about, but I never got to actually roleplay it out. I was too unproductive.

I had a good cast of characters to pick from, but I think I chose Sunü as my name here because I planned on her committing suicide later in the RP. I think it was a mix from the abuse from her husband and the isolation from her family. Her abusive father dies and her brother goes two-faced and wants her husband dead to accrue more power. She'd die hanging by a tree near a creek because of it all. Also, the profile picture that I chose is her; I like the imagine her having those silent, contemplative moments about what to do.

 

[SadRatQueen]

I'm the queen of all the sad rats in the world, being the saddest rat out of them all.
But in all seriousness, my name comes from my father calling me A Rat, because he refuses to call me by my actual name. He does it to remind me how much of a burden I am to him.

 

[daysnumbered]

My days are numbered on this planet whether I ctb or die naturally.

 

[toxicjester]

I'm a toxic person with nothing to offer. Like a constant rebuff on you that just gets worse and worse like the status effect in pokemon

My life feels like a joke and I'm just a funny jester whose performing for laughs at my expense

 

[darkest]

Well, one could say it's just a persona.

One that is most comfortable with being on his own, even if it costs hurting everyone that has ever loved him and cared about him, just so that he can have some peace of mind.

No more getting betrayed or hurt or disappointed from anyone anymore, no more high expectations to be met, no more being used or not feeling enough for anyone or going through life just for someone anymore, he's sick of it all.

Side note, the name is dark, the est is because the name was taken.
And definitely not inspired from dark matter haha!

 

[Forveleth]

Mine is an old username that I used on like, one site 20 years ago. It's my go-to throwaway name for random ass accounts that I do not want traced back to me.

 

[Algernon's Grave]

Mine is reference to the novel "Flowers for Algernon" by Daniel Keyes. It's about a man with a low IQ who takes part in a surgery that is meant to make him smarter. But as it turns out, the effects are only temporary. The book follows the main character's miserable decline from intelligence to mental disability. That's how I've been feeling like for some time.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

I really like fountain pens.
Lamy is a brand who makes pens and ink.
My first fountain pen was a Lamy Safari.

I then listened to Toxicity by System of a Down.
I really liked the lyrics:
Somewhere between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder

It made me imagine that the sacred silence is both the time before you are born, and the time after your death.
Life is that disorder.

 

[music]

im a woman and im big

this rocks

 

[gothbird]

I'm goth and named after a bird.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

Ghost in the machine - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

As a trans person, I find myself entirely detached from my own body and thus my mind/soul has become distinct from the vessel it's forced to reside in. It's also a reference to Ghost in the Shell, which often covers themes of existentialism and identity, which is why I have the pfp that I do. If it was possible, I would fully give up biological flesh to become a synthetic human if it meant being able to be one with myself.

 

[Cauliflour]

There was this self harm forum I joined a while back but didn't really interact on but it was part of my quest to find a place like this. I didn't want to use my common internet nicknames for obvious reasons and I have a habit of naming characters in video games either after food or after consoles and my first thought was "cauliflower" but I spelt it wrong and I just carried it over.

Nothing deep, just the thought of cauliflower cheese.

I don't even like cauliflowers.

 

[moya117]

its a name i came up for my doll a long time ago, just thought its cute, and 117 i just like the number. while i love my doll back then, idk i kind of discard it a long time ago, maybe bcs it represent me and i don't like that
I've made the design myself, its custom made

 

[deus_ex_machina]

just my love for the phrase deus ex machina.

 

[slightoverlooked]

i was emotionally neglected as a child. middle child here haha. my mom took perfect care of all my other needs like food, clean house and showing up to my appointments but never talked to me about my problems. there was never room for my emotions because my sister was struggling.
she always said "She is such an easy child. so smart and does everything on her own" (i was 12)

was already severely depressed and traumatized didnt talk to anyone about my problems and then snapped at 19 and tried to kms.

also i feel overlooked bc never had a partner and im 23. there r some men interested in me but i seem to attract weirdos and even when i give them a chance they turn out to be idiots.

 

[ODIFA]

One Day I'll Fly Away

 

[Mirelight]

how i feel most of the time