exiled

exiled

i gave so many signs
Jun 17, 2023
296
I don't have the words to explain my situation or how deeply the pain runs. I am at work right now in a complete psychotic breakdown. I cannot compose myself. I absolutely do not feel like I will make it. I need help. Please. Someone please help me die. I don't want this anymore. I don't want to do this life thing anymore. Someone make it stop it's literally excruciating millisecond after millisecond. The agony is unbearable my body aches in severe physical ways, my chest feels hollow, each breath feels painful. Like I'm somehow drowning further with each breath, and my eyes feel so heavy. It stings. It stings to be alive. It stings to breathe. Each breath in literally feels like a bee's hive being released in my lungs.

I'm broken. I'm lost. Please. Someone. Pray for me.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,622
Damn, I am so Very sorry that is all happening to you. Made me choke up and cry somewhat silently.

Thoughts and prayers sent your way, Always. ♥

DM me if you would like to talk about anything.
 
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illAF

Specialist
Jun 19, 2023
328
I don't have the words to explain my situation or how deeply the pain runs. I am at work right now in a complete psychotic breakdown. I cannot compose myself. I absolutely do not feel like I will make it. I need help. Please. Someone please help me die. I don't want this anymore. I don't want to do this life thing anymore. Someone make it stop it's literally excruciating millisecond after millisecond. The agony is unbearable my body aches in severe physical ways, my chest feels hollow, each breath feels painful. Like I'm somehow drowning further with each breath, and my eyes feel so heavy. It stings. It stings to be alive. It stings to breathe. Each breath in literally feels like a bee's hive being released in my lungs.

I'm broken. I'm lost. Please. Someone. Pray for me.
You broke my heart. I'm so so so sorry for you. I'm sorry I can't help you but even though I'm an atheist, I'll pray for you and sending you all the love you can support ❤️
 
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deomlez

Not english native speaker. Ctb is my life.
May 19, 2023
330
Hey, you are not alone... i can hear you here. It seems it s hard for you... you are not alone :hug:
 
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exiled

exiled

i gave so many signs
Jun 17, 2023
296
Thank you everyone. It hurts so much i wish i could just run so fast and far away from my brain I wish there was mercy

Please I need mercy
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,856
That really sounds so torturous what you have to endure, it's certainly such a hellish existence where there is all this endless agony, I hope you eventually find freedom from your suffering.
 
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Jam86

Member
Feb 23, 2022
27
401Kind,

I'm praying for you.. I am in similar situation for last 3.5yrs but lost my Job as well.
your prayers appreciated likewise..
 
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exiled

exiled

i gave so many signs
Jun 17, 2023
296
My body is a torture chamber and i swear not having access to painles suicide feels like i've been locked inside this fucking hell hole and someone threw away the key

i cant
fuxking

take it

please god take me
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,733
My body is a torture chamber and i swear not having access to painles suicide feels like i've been locked inside this fucking hell hole and someone threw away the key

i cant
fuxking

take it

please god take me
Pro-lifers and others by banning assisted suicide and nembutal and restricting suicide methods are torturing millions of us . Someone should tell them we are all going to die anyway. There's no reason to put up with pain or suffering
 
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90starve

90starve

i don’t know who i am
May 8, 2023
578
it sounds so torturous what you're going through right now. i received some bad news at work recently, which threw me into absolute panic and a breakdown of my own - i hope you find relief soon <3
 
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exiled

exiled

i gave so many signs
Jun 17, 2023
296
i'm so so scared to ctb and also have zero access to painless methods in the united states. this is so bad. i need someone to just shoot me in the back of the head no warning. i need something. i need someone.
a hug right now would do the same.
i have nothing and no one.
please god save me.
i'm so pained please help
 
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deomlez

Not english native speaker. Ctb is my life.
May 19, 2023
330
How are you rn ?
 
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Daxter_87

Daxter_87

If my name is crossed out, hopefully I'm dead.
May 28, 2023
400
That must be beyond awful, I can't even imagine how it feels like. No matter who you are, life always finds a way to torture you; it seems like it's deliberately done that way. But for many people the pain apparently never gets intense enough for them to want to CTB, so they continue deluding themselves into believing in the "sacredness of life". Hence one of the reasons pro-lifers aren't personally interested in, and (worst of all) argue against, having access to a peaceful way out of this shithole.

Anyhow, I'm really sorry for what you are enduring. If there's anything specific we can do for you, then please let us know. 🤗
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,231
This is horrible the pain is agonizing. I also have physical chronic pain and also in breakdown mentally. I just want to be out here. Hopefully we get out of this fast
 
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CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
2,613
V sry know same v sry bdy prison v cruel life no know do wat
 
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Kerrtu

Kerrtu

Komeetta ♊︎
May 8, 2023
474
i'm so so scared to ctb and also have zero access to painless methods in the united states. this is so bad. i need someone to just shoot me in the back of the head no warning. i need something. i need someone.
a hug right now would do the same.
i have nothing and no one.
please god save me.
i'm so pained please help

@401kind I've got a question for you, would it be alright if I sent you a message?
 
love_peep

love_peep

Specialist
May 26, 2023
313
Oh shit this sounds really painful the only thing I can do unfortunately for you is support with words or give any information, anyway I think people are suffering too much,I don't understand why this is happening why people have to suffer in this fucking world, I'm also very tired and I understand you, I turned into a vegetable in general and because of depression and now I just sit at home and get treated. I am extremely sorry for you, I hope you will find peace someday and we will see each other on the other side, brother, and I will hug you. I'm sorry that you feel this, it's very painful and I had this 1 time at the peak of my depression when every second was like two seconds when you want to die every second just that very day I lay down under the train and the fucking instinct of self-preservation saved me, it pisses me off that I'm such a coward. I wish you good luck in the future, I hope everything will get better for you
 
befree

befree

Time to do more enjoyable things _____Goodbye_____
Mar 22, 2022
2,587
Are there any medical options to help you quickly ?
 
enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
378
i'm so so scared to ctb and also have zero access to painless methods in the united states. this is so bad. i need someone to just shoot me in the back of the head no warning. i need something. i need someone.
a hug right now would do the same.
i have nothing and no one.
please god save me.
i'm so pained please help
🫂 🫂 🫂 🫂 🫂 🫂
 

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