Everything hurts too much

[DimaD]

I've been experiencing this a lot lately, where I hear about something bad, either on the internet or in real life, especially my home life. It just ruins my whole day. My brain keeps thinking about it constantly, or it randomly brings it up again. I just don't want to think about these things anymore.

I can't stand the human race at this point. I know not all people are like that, but it's getting hard to tell the difference because I simply don't have the energy for it any longer. I am so overwhelmed with hate and wrath. What´s the point of living ,if you never had a chance in this unjust world in the first place?

If everything goes as planned, I can ctb in about 3 to 4 weeks with SN, since I'm still waiting for my antiemetics to arrive and I'm still living with my family, so I need to schedule my attempt for when no one is home. It hurts so bad. Every day passing feels like a whole week.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand finding it painful to exist, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[DimaD]

I understand finding it painful to exist, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

Thank you very much. I hope you do too