KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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I get excited that my heart may be giving up and I get cardiac arrest in my sleep. It gives me a temporary feeling of peace, until of course I know it was false alarm.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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The way that you feel is understandable, only those who die are fortunate to me.
 
KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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The way that you feel is understandable, only those who die are fortunate to me.
When I hear a report about someone who died, I always envy them.
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

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When I hear a report about someone who died, I always envy them.
Me too, and then I immediately feel bad for having that reaction because it's almost always someone who wanted to live :\ Just goes to highlight the inherent unfairness of the universe, that people who enjoy life get taken away and people who despise it are kept here
 
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I get excited that my heart may be giving up and I get cardiac arrest in my sleep. It gives me a temporary feeling of peace, until of course I know it was false alarm.
Such a disappointing feeling that it is a false alarm. I often then go for caffeine and high intensity interval exercise/sprints in the vain hope it all adds up, but of course it physically doesn't work like that. I suppose at least doing that stops the 'hypochondriac' side of me raising an alarm when that isn't necessary.
 
KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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Such a disappointing feeling that it is a false alarm. I often then go for caffeine and high intensity interval exercise/sprints in the vain hope it all adds up, but of course it physically doesn't work like that. I suppose at least doing that stops the 'hypochondriac' side of me raising an alarm when that isn't necessary.
I'm also disappointed when I wake up in the "morning"
Me too, and then I immediately feel bad for having that reaction because it's almost always someone who wanted to live :\ Just goes to highlight the inherent unfairness of the universe, that people who enjoy life get taken away and people who despise it are kept here
I would gladly exchange my life-force to someone who wants to keep living longer
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

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But, why are you getting stabbing pains in your chest in the first place? That's not normal.
 
KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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But, why are you getting stabbing pains in your chest in the first place? That's not normal.
Only rarely. It's just air. I have been checked and there is nothing wrong with my heart or lungs.
 
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