Venting Every night I feel calm after crying whole day only because I hope it was the last day and I will pass in my sleep

[KillingPain267]

If I feel chest pain I rejoice, hoping it means my heart is about to give up soon. I would probably be the only person ever who would be happy to be diagnosed with heart issues, and then do everything the doctors say to avoid, but unfortunately my heart works normally.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also certainly just wish to fall asleep eternally, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how people are suffering and trapped in this existence with no peaceful exit, I hope that you eventually find the peace you search for.

 

[mediocre]

I experience the exact same thing.. but then I wake up and I am so disappointed:(
The way I've not taken care of myself I should be dead already.. but do I have diabetes? No.. cancer? No.. any other disease? Nope!
And yet my healthy family members have got cancer and health conditions.. a couple of them have passed.

But I will seemingly live forever

 

[assisted]

I experience the exact same thing.. but then I wake up and I am so disappointed:(
The way I've not taken care of myself I should be dead already.. but do I have diabetes? No.. cancer? No.. any other disease? Nope!
And yet my healthy family members have got cancer and health conditions.. a couple of them have passed.

But I will seemingly live forever

are you younger than those family members

 

[eatantz]

I always feels disappointment when i wake up, why cant i die in my sleep?

 

[KillingPain267]

I always feels disappointment when i wake up, why cant i die in my sleep?

Yeah, I just woke up. I went to bed with stinging in my chest, and palpitation, and thought this was it, but still woke up. Anoother day of torment.