Even if you aren't suicidal, living doesn't seem enticing at all..

[Un-]

Unless you're rich in some aspects - money, love, relationships, happiness - life is not looking good. I think about it a lot. Even if I wasn't suicidal, the idea of continously studying, getting into debt, having to work my ass off for a horrible living, stress - so, so much stress.. and that's just my life. We haven't considered the direction the world is going. Politics, the economy, the rich, the poor, the homeless, the well-off.. everything just makes life look like shit. Maybe I have biases with me, but I'm really reluctant to continue living in a world that's just so horrible in so many ways.. that the only way to survive is to focus on yourself. Because looking past your bubble is enough to just.. fuck you up..

That's just me though.. Some people don't mind.. I can't understand it. I don't know if it's strength, naivety, stupidity or what.. I don't know..

 

[eldiablo666]

In my eyes it's pretty easy.
Do you consider yourself evil?
Are you able to become evil?

If the answer is yes to one of these questions then I would say life is worth it.

 

[whatevs]

Unless you're rich in some aspects - money, love, relationships, happiness - life is not looking good. I think about it a lot. Even if I wasn't suicidal, the idea of continously studying, getting into debt, having to work my ass off for a horrible living, stress - so, so much stress.. and that's just my life. We haven't considered the direction the world is going. Politics, the economy, the rich, the poor, the homeless, the well-off.. everything just makes life look like shit. Maybe I have biases with me, but I'm really reluctant to continue living in a world that's just so horrible in so many ways.. that the only way to survive is to focus on yourself. Because looking past your bubble is enough to just.. fuck you up..

That's just me though.. Some people don't mind.. I can't understand it. I don't know if it's strength, naivety, stupidity or what.. I don't know..

If I was physically healthy I would actually enjoy working and all the struggles. I guess people like you are facing a mental hurdle which nullifies the joys of being physically healthy.

In my youth I got hit by existentialist sentiments every single day and despised society and optimists with a passion but still busted a nut every single day, coveted women and looked forward to playing videogames, reading books or starting projects.

If your mind is healthy and your body is also life is good, let's be real about that.

The world is headed for a purge phase, you're right about that Un-. Something much worse than the fake pandemic is in store. Kinda exciting IMO. Bring it on.

 

[Un-]

If I was physically healthy I would actually enjoy working and all the struggles. I guess people like you are facing a mental hurdle which nullifies the joys of being physically healthy.

Probably.. I just don't understand what makes people tick. I look at my mother - every day without fail she tells me something tragic. And yet if you were to ask her, she wants to continue living, and thinks it's a blessing. She's not even that healthy; i don't know what context you're referring to by health. Then again, it's difficult to enjoy something that you have not seen the value of. I have never not been physically healthy, so I can't appreciate it as much as you probably do. I'd imagine I'd enjoy things like holding hands and hugging people, because I've never done something like that before. But people who do, probably won't enjoy it as much as I would.

If your mind is healthy and your body is also life is good, let's be real about that.

The world is headed to a purge phase, you're right about that Un-. Something much worse than the fake pandemic is in store. Kinda exciting IMO. Bring it on.

Life can be good. Depends on what you value.. what you see in it.. many sound of mind, and fit kill themselves because of circumstances... many of them are in this forum..

Yeah i don't want it to come heh. I barely have the mental fortitude to withstand SaSu being attacked in some way every single week. Having a monumental problem that's probably gonna fuck us in the ass irreparably is not something I'm excited for. You do you, though, Mr. Whatevs.

 

[whatevs]

There's no escaping what's coming. Energy is stored and then released. What's thrown under the carpet accumulates, and there's limited space under that carpet. There's joy in endings as they're the beginning of something else. The lies that our parents fed us and that they were fed with are crumbling and many will have to die. It is a beautiful sight to me, that I love truth and hate deceit.

In terms of what I meant is simple. If you feel healthy mentally and physically you enjoy life. If you don't, something is malfunctioning. There's no 'greater clarity' working behind the scenes in having physical health but not enjoying existence, IMO, in most cases.

It is said that Siddhartha Gautama or Buddha experienced that without having any mental or physical problem whatsoever, being handsome, young and wealthy. In these rare cases you might just be ready to leave the material world.

But you or me aren't. I want to get lost in the fragrant hair of a woman and you feel deprived of touch.

Probably.. I just don't understand what makes people tick. I look at my mother - every day without fail she tells me something tragic. And yet if you were to ask her, she wants to continue living, and thinks it's a blessing. She's not even that healthy; i don't know what context you're referring to by health. Then again, it's difficult to enjoy something that you have not seen the value of. I have never not been physically healthy, so I can't appreciate it as much as you probably do. I'd imagine I'd enjoy things like holding hands and hugging people, because I've never done something like that before. But people who do, probably won't enjoy it as much as I would.


Life can be good. Depends on what you value.. what you see in it.. many sound of mind, and fit kill themselves because of circumstances... many of them are in this forum..

Yeah i don't want it to come heh. I barely have the mental fortitude to withstand SaSu being attacked in some way every single week. Having a monumental problem that's probably gonna fuck us in the ass irreparably is not something I'm excited for. You do you, though, Mr. Whatevs.

I also don't understand this big gripe SaSu has with the suicidal being more mentally ill than other groups. It doesn't take away from our pain, our experience is just as respectable, just as real. Mental illness is a very insidious form of pain that's gaining recognition nowadays.

Suicidals kill themselves because they're physically or mentally ill, or both, and that's it. Even doing it because you lost a partner can be thrown into the mentally ill basket as other people are able to build themselves up after that loss.

I accept a challenge here if anyone wants. I'm on sick leave today. Think of examples where suicide isn't because someone is physically or mentally ill.

 

[Darkover]

nothing interests me anymore i have more bad days than good days music films books games internet all boring since getting a brain injury just wish i was dead already

 

[Un-]

nothing interests me anymore i have more bad days than good days music films books games internet all boring since getting a brain injury just wish i was dead already

I'm a firm believer that the bare minimum requirement to continue living a somewhat enjoyable life is to be able to enjoy SOMETHING. What that is, doesn't matter.. You die your first death the moment you don't enjoy anything, anymore. You have no reason to do anything, other than pure obligation. That's not living. I'm so sorry friend..

 

[eldiablo666]

Probably.. I just don't understand what makes people tick. I look at my mother - every day without fail she tells me something tragic. And yet if you were to ask her, she wants to continue living, and thinks it's a blessing. She's not even that healthy; i don't know what context you're referring to by health. Then again, it's difficult to enjoy something that you have not seen the value of. I have never not been physically healthy, so I can't appreciate it as much as you probably do. I'd imagine I'd enjoy things like holding hands and hugging people, because I've never done something like that before. But people who do, probably won't enjoy it as much as I would.


Life can be good. Depends on what you value.. what you see in it.. many sound of mind, and fit kill themselves because of circumstances... many of them are in this forum..

Yeah i don't want it to come heh. I barely have the mental fortitude to withstand SaSu being attacked in some way every single week. Having a monumental problem that's probably gonna fuck us in the ass irreparably is not something I'm excited for. You do you, though, Mr. Whatevs.

She's brainwashed. That's your answer

nothing interests me anymore i have more bad days than good days music films books games internet all boring since getting a brain injury just wish i was dead already

was it shrooms?

 

[whatevs]

She's brainwashed. That's your answer

was it shrooms?

She's happy enough to go on, there's your answer.

 

[Darkover]

was it shrooms?

no weed and headphones weed caused the addiction to music and headphone caused the damage to both of my ears and brain a bad case of tinnitus as well

 

[Un-]

She's brainwashed. That's your answer

Prefer you not call my mother brainwashed.

 

[eldiablo666]

She's happy enough to go on, there's your answer.

Like I said, stupid or brainwashed.
It's basically the same thing anyway.

 

[whatevs]

Like I said, stupid or brainwashed.
It's basically the same thing anyway.

Absolutely not the same thing being happy with being stupid or brainwashed. They can coincide or not. Facts.

 

[eldiablo666]

Absolutely not the same thing being happy with being stupid or brainwashed. They can coincide or not. Facts.

I agree to disagree.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. At least to me the thought of having to exist could never be appealing in any way. The world that we live in is so objectively horrific and cruel and at least to me it makes sense to wish to be gone from it. I just don't get how people accept life, maybe many are staying here for others, or they manage to distract themselves or suicide is difficult for them so they just carry on existing. But I feel as though even without extreme amounts of suffering life is pointless and tedious to me, and I view being gone from this world as always being the preferable option. Some people are not meant for living and that is the reality of this life. I just view it as being so disturbing how life even exists in the first place, it's an awful thing to be trapped in this human body and to be aware of this existence. I do believe that if N became easily accessible, so many would ctb and free themselves from this burden.

 

[Un-]

Your feelings are understandable. At least to me the thought of having to exist could never be appealing in any way. The world that we live in is so objectively horrific and cruel and at least to me it makes sense to wish to be gone from it.

Nor do I. I try think about the good things in life and I still don't understand. I'm probably fundamentally broken... just.. I don't know what the buzz is about this life thing heh. It just seems like a drag past school until you're retirement. Even @ClownMe (I think) made that huge calculation that basically showed, sort of, that you spend 1/3 of your life doing something you like.

Some people like that though. I think they see something that I don't. Something that I don't think I'll ever see.

 

[pauly1963]

If I was physically healthy I would actually enjoy working and all the struggles. I guess people like you are facing a mental hurdle which nullifies the joys of being physically healthy.

In my youth I got hit by existentialist sentiments every single day and despised society and optimists with a passion but still busted a nut every single day, coveted women and looked forward to playing videogames, reading books or starting projects.

If your mind is healthy and your body is also life is good, let's be real about that.

The world is headed for a purge phase, you're right about that Un-. Something much worse than the fake pandemic is in store. Kinda exciting IMO. Bring it on.

Yes, something much worse is coming. Unless you are a so-called conspiracy theorist, then you will be blissfully unaware of the coming shitstorm. I agree it's exiting. It's like the old Chinese proverb: " May you live in interesting times ". And things are going to get very fucking interesting indeed.

I'm a firm believer that the bare minimum requirement to continue living a somewhat enjoyable life is to be able to enjoy SOMETHING. What that is, doesn't matter.. You die your first death the moment you don't enjoy anything, anymore. You have no reason to do anything, other than pure obligation. That's not living. I'm so sorry friend..

I suffer from anhedonia. I feel no pleasure in anything anymore. I am a living corpse.

I'm a firm believer that the bare minimum requirement to continue living a somewhat enjoyable life is to be able to enjoy SOMETHING. What that is, doesn't matter.. You die your first death the moment you don't enjoy anything, anymore. You have no reason to do anything, other than pure obligation. That's not living. I'm so sorry friend..

I suffer from anhedonia. I feel no pleasure in anything anymore. I am a living corpse.

Unless you're rich in some aspects - money, love, relationships, happiness - life is not looking good. I think about it a lot. Even if I wasn't suicidal, the idea of continously studying, getting into debt, having to work my ass off for a horrible living, stress - so, so much stress.. and that's just my life. We haven't considered the direction the world is going. Politics, the economy, the rich, the poor, the homeless, the well-off.. everything just makes life look like shit. Maybe I have biases with me, but I'm really reluctant to continue living in a world that's just so horrible in so many ways.. that the only way to survive is to focus on yourself. Because looking past your bubble is enough to just.. fuck you up..

That's just me though.. Some people don't mind.. I can't understand it. I don't know if it's strength, naivety, stupidity or what.. I don't know..

I like living in my bubble. But I'm not too keen on reality.