''enjoying things one last time''

[Professor K]

i hear many people during the last weeks or days of their life talk about everything they want to do and enjoy one last time.
somehow this sounds to me if though we are addicted to life. like an addict (drug, cigarette, food, anything) indulging ''one last time'' before presumably quitting forever, just to get back to it again because they miss it and just can't let go.
i think that this cycle works the same for suicidal people and reinforces SI as a result.
i mean why are we missing things, or are sad about never being councious again after we claim to wish to stop suffering forever and that nothing matters anymore?

[i personally have come to a state of complete neutrality regarding life or death. i am content with anything that happens to me as im alive and i don't care if i die since i don't feel a need to pursue or achieve anything. i act normal for the sake of civility but i am emotionally detached from any concept of pleasure or suffering. now i see ctb as an option i can reach out for anytime with every researches of methods and plans made beforehand. at the same time i don't care if i live and ''wait'' to die of natural causes. both options are at hand and there's nothing significant about any of them.]

this is subjective i presume, what do you think?

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't desire experiencing anything at all personally. Existing to me is futile, unnappealing and pointless, it's a burden and a chore, there's nothing to be gained by it. And I find it tiring just being conscious and aware, I only wish for nothingness, the permanent relief from suffering, I don't relate to anybody saying they find any of this enjoyable.

 

[whywere]

Everyone is the same BUT also unique upon themselves and what works for one person OR may not work for another.

Easy way for me to look at it. Think about siblings, I am over 6 feet tall, and my older "brother" is around 5 feet. Both have the same parents but 100% different.

Same as my chronic pain, my medical team is STILL working on finding a solution to tamp down the pain. We have tried so many different drugs and so far, not much success. Had a telephone appointment today and my medical team said so much, as we are all different and to keep trying different chemicals.

Lots of hugs and love to my family here, thank you so much,

Walter

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

I've lost all the joy I used to get. Money is tight so I can't buy action figures anymore. Last time I was in Walmart I saw the new TMNT figures and picked up Raphael, but didn't feel anything so I set it down. Watching movies is more about having noise in the apartment. Even tried playing video games and I just can't get into it. I've been impotent for the past month so even sex is off the table. Got a jar of edibles that I don't care to have as well.

I wouldn't mind having some ribs or a pizza from Pizza Hut, but I think it wouldn't do anything either. So at this point I don't even think I could enjoy anything. All my past indulgences give me no pleasure, and all that's doing is making me want to die even more. What's the point in living when there's nothing to enjoy?

 

[suicidaleeyore]

I'm currently in that stage. Really enjoying what I can out of my few comforts left in life (my blankets, my teddy and food really). I'm starting to think about selling most of my stuff so there's less for my family to deal with and then at least I can leave some money behind for my family because they can't afford the costs that would come with me dying let alone a funeral of any sort