Emotional Pain (Poll)

[Sensei]

I'd like to add mental illness. My bipolar disorder amplifies my perception of all my problems to a point where I feel that I no longer can go on living.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I'd like to add mental illness. My bipolar disorder amplifies my perception of all my problems to a point where I feel that I no longer can go on living.

How could I miss that one? I still think I maxed out the amount of options available but this is of course a big and common pain thing, thanks.

 

[whywere]

For me it is 1) chronic 24/7 massive pain 2) no family or friends, except my loving family here!!, 3) knowing that my older "brother" and younger "sister" are 100% set for life as far as money goes from our "parents", who left me ZERO. Walter

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Aching, swollen joints (arthritis) from lupus. Performing even the most simple tasks required considerable effort. Nothing is quite as isolating as chronic pain. Then on top of that, being told it's no big deal. I died that year.

 

[WornOutLife]

It seems I'm part of the majority!
My low self-esteem is certainly fu**ing things up.

 

[Makko]

I have something, but I don't know how to describe what it is I have. I suppose the closest of these would be loneliness, but it's not a sort of loneliness that human companionship can cure.

 

[Pen>Sword]

FML. The one that I fear the most is my personal future. I want to time travel and fix my mistakes so that I wouldn't worry about my future.

 

[signifying nothing]

This probably won't make sense, but anyway: pain from searching for something, but not ever really finding it. Think I'm just trying to find myself, connect with people and things like me, but realise it's not possible because I only exist here. No one and nothing is really like me. There's comfort from that as well as pain. Maybe just a long winded way of saying loneliness, but it's myself I need, good enough mirrors of who and how I am that I feel are missing.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I have something, but I don't know how to describe what it is I have. I suppose the closest of these would be loneliness, but it's not a sort of loneliness that human companionship can cure.

Maybe being able to describe it is step one to getting rid of it (if that's even a goal).

FML. The one that I fear the most is my personal future. I want to time travel and fix my mistakes so that I wouldn't worry about my future.

Same, my life is completely over at 23 because of my choices/genetics/circumstances/environment/harddeterminismiscorrect.

This probably won't make sense, but anyway: pain from searching for something, but not ever really finding it. Think I'm just trying to find myself, connect with people and things like me, but realise it's not possible because I only exist here. No one and nothing is really like me. There's comfort from that as well as pain. Maybe just a long winded way of saying loneliness, but it's myself I need, good enough mirrors of who and how I am that I feel are missing.

Some kind of solipsism? This sounds close to zen Buddhism and shit.

 

[strangeceleste]

I'd like to add mental illness. My bipolar disorder amplifies my perception of all my problems to a point where I feel that I no longer can go on living.

Even though I feel primarily numb, I ticked all the boxes on the poll and I second this. There's no surprise bipolar has such a high suicide rate, and the medications are horrible so I have no idea where that leaves me, as the ones I've tried have given me side effects I'm not willing to tolerate. I also have bpd (aka EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE personality disorder) apparently, although psychiatry doesn't actually know a lot, so it seems I'm literally clinically more susceptible to hypersensitivity (but I present as more of the quiet, internalised type). Interestingly also present with physical hypersensitivity, especially with noise and my immune system.

 

[LiminalFantasies]

For me mostly comes from struggling to move on from an online friendship break-up (and still I am, almost 1 month later, always thinking that really meant a lot for me and also struggling to make friends IRL and/or disinterest in friendships and romamtic relationships) at the moment. Also would be moments where I would go to ruminate, like remembering my attempts at ODing myself and my constant suicidal ideation, especially when I go to sleep.

 

[lofticries]

The loneliness(unable to connect with or be by anyone) and negative self talk are real killers for me. I think I could deal with the loneliness but the negative self talk makes it feel like I have my own lil portable bully.

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[Journeytoletgo]

Social positioning, I internalized the trauma and it's an infinite loop in my head.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess I am always in some sort of physical discomfort, but a lot of the time I have feelings of dread and hopelessness as I simply do not like living. Existence can be painful.

 

[RealLostSoul]

Add grief/sorrow onto the list