has anyone experienced utter flatness and deadness of emotions, etc. any stories of them coming back?
i'm homeless at the end of the week and having a time with it. maybe i'm in shock and denial. maybe i'm dying dozens of small deaths already. i'm having to trash most of my stuff and just dropped 3 more boxes off at the dumpster. things i had kept thru a lot now just gone. and its kinda concerning how "shrugging of the shoulders" I feel about it. almost like everything in my life already gone, withered to incapable of functioning across 3 years, now truly homeless, multiple attempts thru the last 18 months, and now nostalgia and sentiment are virtually gone and i'm not even feeling sad... just reflective about it
anyone hit rock bottom bad? were you trying to CTB thru it? any secret to surviving? or maybe even for just wanting to survive?
i'm homeless at the end of the week and having a time with it. maybe i'm in shock and denial. maybe i'm dying dozens of small deaths already. i'm having to trash most of my stuff and just dropped 3 more boxes off at the dumpster. things i had kept thru a lot now just gone. and its kinda concerning how "shrugging of the shoulders" I feel about it. almost like everything in my life already gone, withered to incapable of functioning across 3 years, now truly homeless, multiple attempts thru the last 18 months, and now nostalgia and sentiment are virtually gone and i'm not even feeling sad... just reflective about it
anyone hit rock bottom bad? were you trying to CTB thru it? any secret to surviving? or maybe even for just wanting to survive?
