Venting embarassing

[qwert3948]

i feel like no matter what i do i'm never able to make a real connection with anyone. i feel like i'm talking a different language around people.
i feel like my insides are being scraped from inside by my loneliness. the fact that the only thing i can currently tell myself to comfort this feeling is that it'll be over soon makes me feel even worse. i'm so sad.

 

[Dejected 55]

The story of my life... except that since my failed attempt in October, I now know I'm doomed to live and exist and suffer for a while yet to come. I don't even have the chance to exit as I hoped to do.