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kurzreisekoff

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Jul 28, 2025
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I don't want my parents to know. I'm willing to suffer, I don't care how painful it is as long as it seems like an accident. I live near a beach and I'm going to pretend like I'm picking up swimming as a new hobby. I know how to swim and I don't have access to alcohol because I live in an islamist country, and also online shopping. All thoughts and ideas are welcome
 
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kurgan

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Jun 6, 2025
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I don't want my parents to know. I'm willing to suffer, I don't care how painful it is as long as it seems like an accident. I live near a beach and I'm going to pretend like I'm picking up swimming as a new hobby. I know how to swim and I don't have access to alcohol because I live in an islamist country, and also online shopping. All thoughts and ideas are welcome
camping with stove cooker/charcoal is a good cover. Many fatal accidents each year.
 
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knickknack81

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Apr 28, 2025
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The closest I have came to a fatal experience was when I was in Mexico, I went swimming in the Pacific Ocean and the undertow grabbed me and pulled me way out there. I was struggling to get back to land as the water really had its way with me. I actually thought there was a good chance that was going to be it for me. A big wave came through and actually pushed me closer to shore and I believe it's the reason Im still alive.

I bring this up just to say the thought of drowning like that was absolutely terrifying. If you are thinking of doing this and you have SI, this will absolutely kick in. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced in life. Not trying to deter you from what yr plans are, just want to know what you are getting yourself into.
 

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