Dream Vent

[blkgunchick]

I had this dream of like six consecutive dreams about a year ago, different things different stuff happening some good well mostly good and then some bad bad being that I committed suicide I guess. By traditional society standards but by mine great, absolutely fucking great. But anyways, in the dreams I was winning awards for my career, and in real life last week I got invited to an award show, in the future, I looked happier in my body is more secure, I had some surgery or something that looked better on me and I was happy as fuck. But at the end of it all, I killed myself, which made me even happier cause I was thinking wow, if I'm getting some prophetic dreams from the future or something, I basically just get to live a bucket list of life travels and stuff I've always wanted to do, including a Europe trip, there was a cosplay competition I also went to/won. It was awesome Except for the ending the suicide. It was awesome or I'm really hoping this happens in real life because it would really please me to go on a last trip and then end things finally the way I wanted to. My way. I hate this fucking planet. I hope this all happens. Anyways. Hopefully I don't seem bat shit crazy. It's just a dream I had. By the way I had this dream a year ago and I'm noticing déjà vu in places now.