“Dr therapist” here - what do you need your therapist to say?

[rationaltake]

All of that said, I can safely say my previous therapist did a massive amount of damage to my life. In the midst of this latest severe depression, I asked him if I should sell all my stocks since I wasn't thinking clearly -he said "sure you can always buy them back later. "
Coincidentally the next day the market was crashing and I sold everything at a tremendous loss. He should've told me "don't do anything when you're feeling like this." Don't get married. Don't quit a job. Don't sell your house. Don't shave your head. No major decisions when you're suffering from severe clinical depression. That was a huge professional error on his part and It wrecked my life. Financially anyway.

That therapist sounds totally unprofessional. I agree he should have told you not to make any major decisions.

He certainly shouldn't have given any advice about selling stocks! I'm sorry this happened but sadly I can understand it all too well.

 

[cambrai33]

I know for sure one thing - when have really bad insomnia - it'll make a normal person suicidal!!!! I've never been a suicidal person until insomnia hit me hard!!!

I also have been chatting with some people that have had suicidal thoughts since 8 years old.

I wish psychiatrists and the medical community understood more about it :(

This is me!!!

I just can't sleep in any meaningful way, it's been like this for nearly 2 months now. I got referred to go to A and E by my councillor and then after a few hours by A and E to get to see a GP urgently but the form filling needs proof of residency, I shredded all that crap in prep for ctb so I now take it as a sign that I don't deserve help and I just need to get on with it.

Obviously I didn't tell A and E just how advanced my suicide idealisation had become but it all just seems like small signs saying I don't deserve help and I should just get on with erasing myself

 

[fay13]

i'm schizo and I've been suffering for eternity , I'm 20 yo , but my religious parents refuse to seek medical help for me all the say that its Satan and devils doing this for me , one of the main reasons I'm going to CTB

 

[Funeralprincess]

So - I am a mental health professional (x2PhD psychology zzzzzz) who works in this area - DrDr I am :)

I am also a complex trauma survivor (CSA, rape victim, emotional and physical abuse victim , gaslighting etc etc the whole shebang) and I have struggled with suicidality and CTB urges since I was 8. And I've a had LOT of (good) therapy. I have also had a lot of unsuccessful
CTB attemptS

I know I'm a really good therapist - my clients for 20years have told me so. And so have their actions - they somehow go on to live and find peace and meaning and joy - the meaning and joy I can't somehow find.

In 20years only one of my clients CTB.

I struggle to keep going. I do so for
1. My gorgeous kids
2. My patients

I walk the walk. Feel like dying? I get it. Hang in There

I Suppose i have two questions
- one personal
- One professional

1. What can your Therapist say or do to help you?
2. Does anyone have any words of wisdom For me as the therapist? To keep
Me Ya hanging in there?

A suicidal therapist? Now this, is interesting

 

[Nightbird]

A suicidal therapist? Now this, is interesting

Lots of us "wounded healers" here, I'd imagine. I'm trained & licensed but I've never practiced bc I'm generally worthless and believe I'd do more harm than good. Thought I could "educate" myself out of a lifetime of self-loathing when 20 (now 30+) years of therapy didn't move the needle. As you can see, neither approach worked.

 

[MidnightDream]

This is an old thread and I think the OP has left, but I rlly don't like the concept of this post, particularly in this forum. If you're one of us, come be one of us. But this community isn't a focus group and I don't think i appreciate being asked to to waste what little emotional energy I already have in teaching them how to be better at their job.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

This is an old thread and I think the OP has left, but I rlly don't like the concept of this post, particularly in this forum. If you're one of us, come be one of us. But this community isn't a focus group and I don't think i appreciate being asked to to waste what little emotional energy I already have in teaching you how to be better at their job.

Lots of us "wounded healers" here, I'd imagine. I'm trained & licensed but I've never practiced bc I'm generally worthless and believe I'd do more harm than good. Thought I could "educate" myself out of a lifetime of self-loathing when 20 (now 30+) years of therapy didn't move the needle. As you can see, neither approach worked.

I think I would probably be a decent wounded healer… It's certainly easier to fix other peoples problems than our own and some peoples problems are potentially managed… Not everybody is doomed…

 

[rationaltake]

It was interesting reading this thread again.

 

[Funeralprincess]

Lots of us "wounded healers" here, I'd imagine. I'm trained & licensed but I've never practiced bc I'm generally worthless and believe I'd do more harm than good. Thought I could "educate" myself out of a lifetime of self-loathing when 20 (now 30+) years of therapy didn't move the needle. As you can see, neither approach worked.

Wounded healer is a good way of putting it. Yeah therapy didn't help me either in fact, it made me worse because my therapists would feed me lies then ditch me

 

[Someone123]

2. Does anyone have any words of wisdom For me as the therapist? To keep
Me Ya hanging in there?

For this, I would say- if carrying other people's burdens is getting to be too much, I would walk away, at least from treating people for depression and mental illness. Helping other people too much could make you subject to serious depression- this does happen. Then I would consider either trying a different career or applying psychology to an area that won't drag you down so much, like sports psychology.