Venting Don't yall want someone to know about your suffering before committing??

[c.c]

Just as the title says ...Don't you guys some times feel like before finally leaving for good someone just any one person should know about what you went through ??

In my case, ever since i was a minor i had suicidal thoughts and my last wish was to let someone know how much i have been through too but that did change last year after which now my last wish is to leave as soon as possible and preferably this month

 

[Felodese]

Plently of people know, most just don't give a shit, so...

 

[Subhumano]

Yes but i dont have friends

 

[Knoc]

That would do nothing for me but made me feel even more ashamed than i already i'm.

At this point my only wish is to rest forever.

 

[CatLvr]

Nope. What would it change?? Nothing good. My goal is to leave this place better than I found it, not worse. There is more than enough pain and suffering in the world without me adding to it.

 

[Griever]

I think that's one of the reasons why I'm here

 

[Forveleth]

I would want someone to know if it would change my situation but nothing is going to change where I am at, so it does not matter. My experience is always getting those standard "it will get better" lines whenever I tell someone what I am going through. I have given up trying to communicate my misery to everyone else.

 

[Knoc]

I would want someone to know if it would change my situation but nothing is going to change where I am at, so it does not matter. My experience is always getting those standard "it will get better" lines whenever I tell someone what I am going through. I have given up trying to communicate my misery to everyone else.

I'll get better , trust me. I'm a life expert with a phd in lifing

 

[ma0]

I'm still unsure, but maybe in my note I'll put the link to my account so people can see.

 

[RibbonAmia]

Sometimes I wish I could, but then that person would either leave me or stay out of guilt, so I prefer not to share anything. I can't tell if it's due to me not trusting them or not wanting to hurt them but I'd rather not risk anything. Either way what I went through already happened, I can't change that. No one can.
Either way if your method to CTB fails it just gets a bit awkward, at least in my opinion.

 

[anonymouswebuser]

Just as the title says ...Don't you guys some times feel like before finally leaving for good someone just any one person should know about what you went through ??

In my case, ever since i was a minor i had suicidal thoughts and my last wish was to let someone know how much i have been through too but that did change last year after which now my last wish is to leave as soon as possible and preferably this month

I've been like this since I was a minor too
they do know about my suffering but they don't care

 

[SovietSuicide]

Yes I agonize over telling people, I want to have a final conversation with someone just before I do it idk the more I think about it then I realize realistically I'm just gonna have to face it alone which is so painful.

 

[worthless123]

I do want people to know what happened to me and understand why I disappeared but at the same time my situation is so embarrassing I'd rather die in secret.

 

[NonEssential]

My family, school psychiatrist and doctor know that I've had suicidal thoughts. I guess that's enough people.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

"Someone" already does - this community. That's enough for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the reason for my suffering, I suffer as a result of being burdened with this torturous and futile existence that I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I personally just want this existence to be gone and forgotten about, I don't want to be known, I just want to disappear and never suffer ever again, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, to me existing is just so unnecessary, I just see existing as waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it, for me non-existence really is all that's positive as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in an eternal, dreamless sleep.

 

[aiyuxhan]

Just as the title says ...Don't you guys some times feel like before finally leaving for good someone just any one person should know about what you went through ??

In my case, ever since i was a minor i had suicidal thoughts and my last wish was to let someone know how much i have been through too but that did change last year after which now my last wish is to leave as soon as possible and preferably this month

the few people I talk to know why I want to. They just want to keep me around for their benefit.

I have written notes writing out why.

 

[Silently Dying]

No, because no one cares.

 

[divinemistress36]

Like others have said most people dont care until you are dead and they will act shocked like they didnt know

 

[Rynalia]

No one gave a shit when they knew.
No one gives a shit when they don't know.
No one will give a shit when they find out.

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I honestly feel like people don't give a shit. If I write it out they'll be like "oh so sad" but then forget about it like it was nothing.

 

[DeathWish3301]

Plently of people know, most just don't give a shit, so...

Beat me to it.

 

[hereornot]

I dont want anything of anything from anyone.

 

[bhaloo]

Every time I told of my suffering to anyone, they were happy about iit and wanted more for me. My suffering and my telling them only made them feel good about themselves.

 

[Pale_Rider]

No ome gives an actual care.

 

[DeathWish3301]

Just as the title says ...Don't you guys some times feel like before finally leaving for good someone just any one person should know about what you went through ??

In my case, ever since i was a minor i had suicidal thoughts and my last wish was to let someone know how much i have been through too but that did change last year after which now my last wish is to leave as soon as possible and preferably this month

As others have said, people don't care. I completely understand wanting to people to know what you went through. Just an unfortunate reality that people are indifferent to the suffering of others.

 

[hang in there]

Just as the title says ...Don't you guys some times feel like before finally leaving for good someone just any one person should know about what you went through ??

In my case, ever since i was a minor i had suicidal thoughts and my last wish was to let someone know how much i have been through too but that did change last year after which now my last wish is to leave as soon as possible and preferably this month

No. I've accepted the fact that I am nothing. Nobody is ever going to think about me or any of my experieces or any of the things in my life that have shaped me and my decisions. I am a background character in a play, a drop of rain in the ocean, a blade of grass in a field. Nothing I say or do matters or is relevant to anyone. No one remembers my face or my voice or thinks of me at all. So why would anyone at all give a single tenth of a fuck what a candle has to say before it snuffs out in its own puddle of wax.

 

[22yearsbroken]

My partner is aware im here .. she knows its peobably rhe beat place for me to be open and honest with out ending up in a rubber roon... ahe understands that its due to my health and how my mind works .. we have disscused lots of things about my death she has been very supportive ..i see no shame in being honeat about how i feel..

 

[matchalavendercake]

this may sound pathetic but the amount of suffering i have been going through is horrendous, not as completely horrible as others, but still very bad enough, and i like to imagine this whole entire universe feeling pity for me because the thought of only a few knowing about my suffering makes me feel extremely uncomfortable.. i think i don't want to write a suicide note to the relatives of this body after all (this body was never actually myself and everyone in this universe is a stranger to me) or i think the only thing i'll write is to not set up a funeral because i do not want just my relatives to mourn over me… they really shouldn't mourn, they should be happy that i'm finally no longer suffering

 

[effervescent]

No. I wouldn't subject myself to the blank stares and awkward silence.