Don't want to die but can't deal with health problems

[searchingforpeace]

I have some kind of unknown disability that affects my walking, causes constant shaking and falling. Doctors have been dismissive in the past. I'm trying to still go to doctors but I can't do this anymore. I just received IC SN and I don't know what do.

 

[my-end]

Something comes to mind since it's been a topic of focus lately. I only mention it since you say that you do not want to die. In no way am I dismissing your intent to be well or seek healing. You may have considered this or doctors may have already. What I mean to ask is have you considered a parasite cleanse or maybe researched the effects of parasites to see if it resonates with you? Like I said, it's been a subject as of late and maybe you've even seen some people who aren't even suffering from anything who perform cleanses.

Just thought I'd mention it in case you hadn't. Best wishes.

 

[searchingforpeace]

I used to do that in the past. I would be open to that.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful and tiring what you have to experience, it's just so horrific how this life can torture people to such extreme extents. At least you have the option of a way to exit this life so you won't feel so trapped here, but I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.

 

[onceuponadec]

I swear doctors never want to get down to the source of your problem. I was so glad when I finally got diagnosed, but I had to advocate for myself as my GP wasn't willing to.
I have MS and was completely numb all over my body.
I hope you don't have this, but you might want to try and get an MRI, if you haven't had one already, to see if you have any lesions in your brain or spine.

 

[Szinuus]

I too have chronic pain health problem and I wish I was gone.

 

[Hurt]

Same happens to me. Things would be totally different if I were healthy. Chronic pain sucks. I'm so sorry.

 

[girlsboysthems]

If I were in your place (which i am not and i do not really know how you feel like) i would try therapy (you can do it yourself too, shadow work, inner child work (more useful in psychosomatic diseases)) and some sort and include psychadelics into the mix to really get in touch with yourself. ordering any meds that you think would work off the webs (im guessing you googled your symptoms and have an idea about what is going on with you and which meds would work (if there are any)).

 

[PrisonBreak]

I am in a similar situation. I would advise you to explore various treatments for your condition/illness. You already have SN so you have nothing to lose by exhausting other options. Goodluck and take care!

 

[searchingforpeace]

If I were in your place (which i am not and i do not really know how you feel like) i would try therapy (you can do it yourself too, shadow work, inner child work (more useful in psychosomatic diseases)) and some sort and include psychadelics into the mix to really get in touch with yourself. ordering any meds that you think would work off the webs (im guessing you googled your symptoms and have an idea about what is going on with you and which meds would work (if there are any)).

I have tried small doses of mushrooms and therapy.

 

[Jadzia]

I'm in a similar situation with very severe chronic illness. I have no chance of recovery and my illness is progressive. Sending hugs

 

[SorrowMind]

I am in the same situation. severe progressive physical illnesses, disability, getting worse and worse, limited mobility and agony. if you don't want to die maybe having already SN helps you cope better knowing that there's an exit for you and you are in control. sending hugs.

 

[searchingforpeace]

I am in the same situation. severe progressive physical illnesses, disability, getting worse and worse, limited mobility and agony. if you don't want to die maybe having already SN helps you cope better knowing that there's an exit for you and you are in control. sending hugs.

Thank you

 

[Rational man]

im same here. I developed autoimmune condition, i think due to covid vaccination. Its just to much of a coincidence. I was healthy and and fit beforehand. Now, i suffer severe peripheral neuralgia , muscle wasting and gut pain. No doctor can explain why. I take pain relief but its partial success. Im sorry to hear about your situation.

 

[Samsal112]

I resonate with your post. I want to live so badly and I am upset that I have to think about killing myself. Like you, my illness doesn't have a diagnosis other than I have stomach dysbiosis. But, I suffer from all kinds of weird painful symptoms other than stomach pain. I don't know if it is necessarily progressive, but I know that unfortunately, it won't kill me. No amount of money or doctors is going to help because in the U.S. you only get like 10 minutes to speak with a doctor and everything needs a specialist. If their basic and costly tests do not pick up on anything, then you're told to go home and you're fine. If I wasn't sick and just depressed, I would continue to live without thinking of hurting myself. Something I don't see on here is that when I do have to off myself, it is going to be so sad and I will cry the entire time. I don't want to give up my life, but fighting against a mysterious illness is fruitless.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I can certainly relate. I'm on this site because of my multiple painful chronic illnesses and protracted benzo withdrawal. I have N saved for when things get absolutely unbearable, but I'm sad that it's come to this. I used to have a decent life.

 

[lifeisbutadream]

Similar here. Relentless pain from nerve damage. The doctors don't know to fix it and don't care. They won't even give people effective anti pain drugs tho they are readily available and inexpensive and have been used for thousands of years. This is the worst time in history to have chronic pain. In past ages healers, whatever they were called, had knowledge of plants and would help people. Poppies have been used for at least 8,000 years. Not now. They are even sending people home from hospital operations with nothing but fucking uselessTylenol!

This place is being monitored. Monitor this, motherfuckers! Millions of people have been put in this position - and now you see us here - because they refuse to help us!