Don't save me, I'm comfortable in my misery

[Deicius]

Most of the time I feel guilty for not feeling guilty because I am happy and comfortable with this misery in which I live, and my conscience does not blame me because I was just a disappointment to my family and did not help them in anything at all and i was a burden to them, but once again I understand that this is 75% my fault but the remaining 25% is their fault because they brought me into this existence But I'm ashamed to blame them because I don't want to seem like an asshole So I just remain silent, as no one is ready to hear the nonsense I go through, but this is normal for me anyway.