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aspenjrojas

aspenjrojas

(they/them/she?)
Jul 15, 2026
29
I wanna ctb within the next year. I just don't know how I feel about the remnants of me, the proof of life just existing in my room and the areas I've been. I'm wondering if I should clean out my room and sell or give away all my stuff to those who actually want/need and will use it. I also feel guilty knowing that throughout my life, resources have been spent and wasted on me.

I'm already trying not to feel guilty about my family, but that's easier because they're already horrible people who don't support me, but I feel guilty about leaving everything else. I was wondering if anyone else is cleaning out their rooms or just leaving it since you're gonna be gone anyway, and it doesn't really matter once you're dead.
 
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NickyKymJelly

NickyKymJelly

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Jul 1, 2026
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I personally would probably leave my room the way it is. I like doing DIYs and a lot of the bigger items in my possession are a result of that. I couldn't part with my own creations. All the other things in my room relate to my special interests and have always given me comfort. If I do cbt in my bedroom, then I would at least like to see/be near my comfort items one final time.
 
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Lost Impact

A Singular Atonement
Oct 31, 2023
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I've been slowly giving some of my stuff to a relative but generally I'm just leaving my room the way it is. I won't CTB in my room though, preferably I'd do it somewhere far, far away.
 
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