Don’t know how to deal with the disgust toward the inside of the human body

[black.over.green]

Hi.
After I start thinking about what's inside the human body or after seeing real photos or footage of death something in me changes. I begin to feel my body as nothing more than a bag filled with liquid, fat, meat, and something that feels filthy and unpleasant. Even blood (just the idea of it) seems dirty to me. Thinking about what's inside makes me sick and disconnected from myself.

…I stop seeing myself as a person, just that bag of wet material.

Does anyone know how to deal with it?

 

[theonethatsleeps]

Sorry, can't help you with this one. I feel awful about organs or anything gore related that isn't in movies.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I also see me and a human as that . and just cells chemical reactions a machine a small animal

for me I want to see it as that .why believe in untruths.

it makes things matter even less. so then u worry about less. but I cam avoid that to me unending unbearable pain id real or feels extremely bad and real. the only things matter to me are avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide asap

 

[black.over.green]

Sorry, can't help you with this one. I feel awful about organs or anything gore related that isn't in movies.

Thank you, I understand, it's hard for me to look at too.

I also see me and a human as that . and just cells chemical reactions a machine a small animal

for me I want to see it as that .why believe in untruths.

I understand. I'm just curious if there's another way to look at it… some different angle that could make being human feel less physically repulsive.

Maybe there are perspectives that could show the human body as something else. Without lies, just from a philosophical point of view…maybe

 

[asaṅkhata]

These feelings of disgust and revulsion come from the mind, they don't stem from the body directly. Your body is just matetial and material is empty on it's own, it has neutral value. Everything you feel towards your body or bodies in general is a mental projection.

 

[black.over.green]

These feelings of disgust and revulsion come from the mind, they don't stem from the body directly. Your body is just matetial and material is empty on it's own, it has neutral value. Everything you feel towards your body or bodies in general is a mental projection.

That makes sense and I agree that the mind projects meaning onto matter, but maybe disgust isn't just a mental illusion, maybe it's something psychological, even normal, protective in a way.

Still, it feels like that system has turned against me. I feel… a deep, visceral disgust at being this fragile bag of meat.

(Haha, I wish I were an advanced robot instead.)

 

[Mooncry]

Yeah, I agree, it's pretty disgusting. Pretty amazing how it all works, but also disgusting. I try not to think about it. :U