kohaku
Nonbinary Hysteric
- Mar 27, 2019
- 188
I'm going to overdose on Sodium Nitrite at 1AM while everyone's asleep. I already started fasting. It's noon right now.
I want to thank this forum for all the essential information it's given me. Ironically, it also kept me from attempting several times in the past, because I didn't have the appropriate methods and from the stories on here I knew how difficult it actually is to accomplish a successful suicide. I have dimenhydrinate to keep me from throwing up and phenibut to help me feel calm.
I don't want to particularly share the details of why I've made this decision, but I can tell you that a difficult friendship situation has driven me over the edge. It's not just that, though. I have copious amounts of trauma that have haunted me all my life, and these demons are staying with me. I'm bringing them down with me.
There's a chance I might be found, which I don't mind, seeing as how reversible SN is. I think it'd be fun to be found, actually. Like a second chance at life. There's still a lot I haven't tried yet to cure my shitty cocktail of mental illnesses, I just got tired of trying. So I'd like to be given a 5 day window to post my status before my account is banned in case I do not succeed or change my mind for whatever reason.
Feel free to ask questions if you're curious, and any advice is appreciated, even if obvious. I'll brush up on my research today and start clearing out my hard drive by the evening. I already cleared out my entire phone when I made the decision last night.
I want to thank this forum for all the essential information it's given me. Ironically, it also kept me from attempting several times in the past, because I didn't have the appropriate methods and from the stories on here I knew how difficult it actually is to accomplish a successful suicide. I have dimenhydrinate to keep me from throwing up and phenibut to help me feel calm.
I don't want to particularly share the details of why I've made this decision, but I can tell you that a difficult friendship situation has driven me over the edge. It's not just that, though. I have copious amounts of trauma that have haunted me all my life, and these demons are staying with me. I'm bringing them down with me.
There's a chance I might be found, which I don't mind, seeing as how reversible SN is. I think it'd be fun to be found, actually. Like a second chance at life. There's still a lot I haven't tried yet to cure my shitty cocktail of mental illnesses, I just got tired of trying. So I'd like to be given a 5 day window to post my status before my account is banned in case I do not succeed or change my mind for whatever reason.
Feel free to ask questions if you're curious, and any advice is appreciated, even if obvious. I'll brush up on my research today and start clearing out my hard drive by the evening. I already cleared out my entire phone when I made the decision last night.