Does your family know you want to die?

[Death is my goal]

told my mother and i regret it,
never telling anyone irl about anything anymore.

 

[Hirokami]

My mom knows I have a history of suicidal ideation. She doesn't like the fact that I have those thoughts, though there's not much she can do. She's convinced herself I won't try anything, at least, so it's not like I'm not suicide watch. My father knew, too, as I voluntarily admitted myself when I was 16 due to constant breakdowns; same deal with him, too, as the professionals told both of them that suicidal thoughts were "normal".

 

[7b48hl]

Yes

 

[FireFox]

Nope

Everyone believes i am happy because I am so good at pretending, lying and hiding my true feelings. I gave up years ago reaching out to family and friends whenever I was depressed because nobody listened or took me seriously.

Had people just listened to me and actually helped me when I said I was depressed at 21 years old I wouldn't be here on Sanactioned Suicide and I wouldn't be planning to kill myself when I turn 30.

 

[Squiddy]

They've known in the past, but they don't know now or just how far they go

 

[Banshee]

I think I've been lucky in keeping it to myself. I read too many post about family/friend intervention. Knowing they won't see it coming gives me a little bit of peace.

 

[blue_muse]

My relative knows and is just counting down time until I go through with it, so **** can bask in the outpouring of sympathy and condolences from others while secretly being delighted. The same goes for my relative's offspring, who will put on a more controlled award-winning performance of public grief. Their only upset will be one less person to bully, control, abuse (verbally and mentally), gaslight, manipulate—you get it.

 

[onetapgandhi]

I don't think so even though I have explicitly told them this several times. I even showed them my SA reagent bottle and they still don't believe me. I guess they are in for a casual surprise

 

[lachrymost]

Yes. I talk about it a lot. My partner is supportive of my right to die on my own terms, although he loves me and would miss me. It means so much to have my autonomy respected like that.

I've told my mother as well. Thankfully she knows there's nothing more she can do for me. I don't think she'd try to commit me unless I was literally threatening to do it immediately.

 

[Sad_Sack]

My wife knows. It puts her under a lot if stress. That and my constant complaining and misery. Unfortunately I think my kids know too. I don't think they know how serious it is though. My wife knows about my first attempt and why I was hospitalized but we let the kids think it was over medication issues. I'm so full of guilt over all of this. I wish at least my wife could experience what I'm going through for just a day. It's so damn lonely and frustrating.

 

[Hurt]

Yep