Does the thought of dying make you feel sad or is it a relief?

[FuneralCry]

For me personally, the thought that someday I will no longer exist is such a relief. Non existence is all that I want only I just wish that it is easier to leave this life behind. Dying is difficult for me and I fear the method failing so I endure life, just waiting around to die. I never want to be here and I see no point to these endless days, it is all for the sake of it.

Dying could never be sad to me personally, there is nothing that I want from this life and if I am gone then I am unable to experience this pointless, horrible existence. Death is inevitable for us all anyway, life is just one big meaningless distraction from our inevitable fate. Death would be the only way to permanently remove all suffering. I would choose death over any kind of life and even if I could change things I would still not want to live.

Life is the sad thing to me, but at least it is all temporary and it will end. It is sad how humans live lives full of pain for no purpose. The cruelty and unfairness of this life just makes me want to leave it even more. Non existence is ideal to me as all my problems would be solved and it would prevent the chance of things getting any worse. I believe death to be true peace, peace that cannot be experienced in this life. To me peace means the absence of anything and it is all that I want.

 

[Lost Magic]

The thought of Dying makes me sad because I would have loved to have had a better life. However, I know I never will have that, too much time has passed and I am far too broken to try to rebuild. I am now in the process of tying up a few loose ends like getting my will witnessed, decluttering and organising the things around me. The Swedish call it death cleaning. I still don't know whether to die at home (I don't like it here) or find a hotel or cottage nearby with some nice scenery. So much planning has went into this over the years. I am slowly getting more comfortable with the thought of dying. It is a natural part of life anyway, still, I would rather do it on my own terms, than by: accident, old age or disease. I guess I am sad and relieved. I am sad that I never got the life I wanted, but relieved that I have a peaceful way out at the time and place of my choosing.

 

[annique]

i see death as a relief as well. I don't really know what comes after, but i tend to assume it's the very nothingness, and if it is that, then i won't be no longer, and with my death all chances of suffering will converge to zero... maybe paradise and hell are real, we don't know, if i go somewhere else when i die, i will attempt suicide again and again

 

[Rational man]

The dying process can be awful, painful such as in my disease. I can only feel pain when im alive so i cannot escape it until i cease to exist. Death is not escaping from pain because everyone will not exist when identity is lost in death. I ACCEPT death without intense sadness. I realise we must make our final journey one day.

 

[alliebear]

Sad+relief. I wish we all have an easy fix. But its not easy and sometimes there arent any solutions actually. Maybe for those that are still able to look life at brighter side, but i think for me, i'll miss it here but I'll be happier there

 

[Anonymus]

It makes me sad because it makes me feel that I have failed but I am relieved to know that once I die it will all be over (actually I am afraid that it will not be over at all, life plays these tricks on you).

Twice I have felt the sensation of dying (not intentionally) and the fear that I get to experience is indescribable, I just hope that the day I die will not repeat this desperate situation that I would never have come to imagine that I could live before 2018.

If it wasn't for these unpleasant sensations I guess maybe I would have taken the step forward a long time ago... maybe it was a deception of my mind, but 3 years ago, when I was so sick that I felt that everything was over, I couldn't even be in the dark at night, I needed to have the bathroom light on near my room... I was very afraid of the dark (as a child) because I perceived presences as if they were vultures waiting for me to die to go after me, it was horrible to feel so harassed by who knows what while I was so weak.
As I recovered that feeling went away but I remembered my grandmother in the late 90's who always wanted the light on because she said that during the night things came near her (she couldn't move from her bed and had dementia) and she was always with the cane trying to keep them away.

Because of all this I would like it to be very quick when he decides to leave, I would not want to be scared to death for years until I die of exhaustion totally exhausted, which is how my family usually dies, as there have been no quick or quiet natural deaths for as long as I have been aware of it.

Spoiler: Original Text

Em fa tristesa perquè em fa sentir que he fracassat però m'alleugeix el fet de saber que un cop mori s'haurà acabat tot (en realitat tinc por de que no s'acabi del tot, la vida et juga aquestes males passades...).

Dues vegades he sentit la sensació de morir-me (no intencionadament) i la por que arribo a experimentar és indescriptible, només espero que el dia que em mori no es repeteixi aquesta situació tan desesperant que mai hagués arribat a imaginar que podia viure abans del 2018.

Si no fos per aquestes sensacions tan desagradables suposo que potser ja hagués fet el pas endavant fa temps.. potser va ser un engany de la meva ment, però fa 3 anys, quan vaig estar tan malalt que sentía que s'acabava tot, ni tan sols podía estar a les fosques a la nit, necessitava tenir el llum del bany encés vora a la meva habitació... tenía molta por a la foscor (com de petit) perquè percebía preséncies com si fossin voltors esperant a que em morís per llençar-se sobre meu, era horrible sentir-se tan assetjat per ves a saber què mentres estava tant débil.
Segons em vaig anar recuperant va desaparèixer aquesta sensació però em vaig enrecordar de la meva àvia a finals dels 90 que sempre volia el llum encés perquè deia a que la nit se li apropaven coses (no es podía moure del llit i tenía deméncia) i sempre estava amb el bastó intentant que no s'apropessin.

Per tot plegat m'agradaria que quan decideixi plegar sigui ben ràpid, no voldría pas estar mort de por durant anys fins que em mori de cansament totalment exhaust, que es com acostuma a morir la meva família, doncs no hi han hagut morts naturals ràpides ni tranquiles desde que en sóc conscient.

 

[picklemick]

The thought of being dead brings relief the actual act of suicide brings me great anxiety

 

[Ecka-26]

Sad Life is so beautiful but I messed that up and now I'm just existing instead of Living.

 

[Zzzzz]

It usually makes me feel relieved.

 

[picklemick]

Sad Life is so beautiful but I messed that up and now I'm just existing instead of Living.

Life is beautiful but ive made it terrible. Envious of others

 

[outatime_85]

I think for me, it is all about pain and the end of said pain.
No more nightmares, no more voices, no more living what I let happen to me as a child, etc.

 

[Klophy]

The thought of finally being free from all of this brings me relief, however also sadness.

Sadness for what could've been. If i had a normal childhood would i be better? If i wasn't bullied? If i had a talent? a passion? And so on.

I'm jealous of others and what could've been

 

[gwanath]

It brings me sadness for the child that I was. She deserved the world and she had it taken from her. But I don't want either of us to suffer anymore.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Mostly relief. I have hardly any family left so I won't be leaving many people behind. I'm sad I wasted so many years and didn't do this earlier. I have zero to look forward to and this planet has nothing for me now. I'm mostly just sad I had to go through life in the first place or that I screwed it up with depression and not knowing what choices to make when I was like 15. I wish I had worked harder in school but at the end of the day I don't think I can change my nature which is to be quite lazy and not really care about or want to do anything. I wish I had ambition and a clear path to take but being a depressed introvert I was never like "I can't wait to do X job" I've never wanted anything out of life. I feel bad my parents and grandparents didn't get a better kid but I never asked to be here.

 

[Hurt]

More like a relief. The thought of being out of this awful world and misery brings me relief.

 

[Darkover]

life in this place is hell non existence is heaven

 

[Hope:-)]

It's a relief for me as although not religious I have 100% belief in eternal life. The crossover worries me ie what is it like to pass through the threshold? How much pain will doing it involve etc, but actual death does not worry me. I know some people are the other way ie unphased by the physical pain, but scared of death.

 

[blue_muse]

I'm in between. Sad, because I'm grieving the life I could've had. Relieved, because I know there's nothing and no one to live for anymore.

 

[Worndown]

Most of the time is is a little sad. At that time it should be a relief.

 

[LeavingEarly]

The thought of dying makes me anxious and worried. I don't know what's on the other side I can only guess it's like before being alive, just nothingness.

 

[hellispink]

The thought of it alone makes me feel a rollercoaster of emotions. I find it relieving as it is an escape from my constant suffering and agony. However, it is also sad for me because of how unfair life is and how bad people usually have great lives while others like me suffer until the end. Also, leaving others behind is difficult and heartbreaking for me. I wish I didn't had to. But my demons are bigger than me. That is without mentioning that, I would pass away in the loneliness and being seen as a coward and other stuff by society instead of them accepting that my life is a decision and I can revoke if I want to. But they will never understand that.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

Definitely sad. I'm forced down this path by a degenerative illness while surrounded by the fruits of a life I took for granted. I am also a member of a forum for others with my condition and every one of them with an account that I recognize here has CTB'd. Such is the physical torture...I'm sure it's a relief to stop suffering but not one we'll be around to appreciate.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

There are good things and bad things in life and everything is transient. When good things like first love, youth and success are gone I feel sad. When bad things like love-sickness, a streak of bad luck or an illness are over I feel relieved. With advancing age the bad things become more and more dominant and the hope that they, that life is over one day gives me relief. Death even erases the memory of the good things in life and the sadness that a good life is over.

 

[Life.Journey.Unknown]

Both for me! Sad at the thought of shutting down my body. Sad at the thought that my parents brought me into this world yet I am choosing to leave it by my own hands. Sad at the thought I won't experience anything else. Sad that I won't be able to relive the good memories I have.
But ultimately I will feel relief. Relief because I feel so empty. That I struggle when things go wrong. I'm not mentally strong enough for this world. I often lack the enthusiasm and desire for life. I get through the days with my own little interests.
Interests that won't make me successful in life. Just little things that get me through the day.
Some days I don't even have the desire for that. And that's a scary feeling because then I am completely empty.
I just don't feel happy. I have great memories of fun times. But I've just been worn down.
I'm grateful for the life my parents gave me. I enjoyed it in my childhood and teen years.
I just haven't enjoyed it now for a long time.
I just want to leave the party early. No point in staying right to the end xx

 

[MountainMonkey]

Relief

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Relief and sadness for what could have been.

 

[chloramine]

Both, I want a fair number of things (safety, people I trust, safe physical contact like hugs), but I don't think they're possible. Or I don't think I can do the things to make them possible. The thought of finally being done is a huge relief

 

[DreamSurfer]

Sadness for people, places, things, and events that I may miss out on. Relief that the suffering will end and hopefully find some peace.

 

[xo777]

Both.
I'm sad that I never felt better even though I tried my hardest but i'm relieved that i'll be okay soon

 

[Musketeer]

For me personally, the thought that someday I will no longer exist is such a relief. Non existence is all that I want only I just wish that it is easier to leave this life behind. Dying is difficult for me and I fear the method failing so I endure life, just waiting around to die. I never want to be here and I see no point to these endless days, it is all for the sake of it.

Dying could never be sad to me personally, there is nothing that I want from this life and if I am gone then I am unable to experience this pointless, horrible existence. Death is inevitable for us all anyway, life is just one big meaningless distraction from our inevitable fate. Death would be the only way to permanently remove all suffering. I would choose death over any kind of life and even if I could change things I would still not want to live.

Life is the sad thing to me, but at least it is all temporary and it will end. It is sad how humans live lives full of pain for no purpose. The cruelty and unfairness of this life just makes me want to leave it even more. Non existence is ideal to me as all my problems would be solved and it would prevent the chance of things getting any worse. I believe death to be true peace, peace that cannot be experienced in this life. To me peace means the absence of anything and it is all that I want.

I have stated my views on this site, so anyone is free to look at my previous comments. I am in severe pain constantly, I would really love to enjoy life but due to circumstances that is impossible. I also believe in some form of reincarnation so it's a little sad and quite a bit of relief to think about suicide. I hope everyone finds a way to be happy in life, but i also understand that due to circumstances that is not always possible. Whenever someone takes their lives i will always feel a bit sad, but it is always there choice to do so. I also envey the people who are able to escape their emotional response to their circumstances and find happiness. I will always respect the individual right to suicide, even if i do it with a heavy heart because everyone deserves to find happiness and joy.