Does it effect you when you see others ctb?

[hoppybunny]

A couple weeks ago when I was in a worse place, it may not have, I saw it as liberation. Now that some of the depression has lifted, It really did, more than I knew it would. I was following someone else's thread leading up to ctb and knew they did it because they stopped posting. I cried for someone didnt know. I respect everyone's decisions and no judgment here, it is our lives and our right to do what we will with them, but it still messed me up

Other than envy i don't really feel anything. I just hope there's only peace waiting at the end for them.

I personally am only alive cause my fear of the unknown afterlife is stronger than my urge to die.

 

[jilet]

there is a video of known member of us who catched the bus. her face is blurred in all the video but not the last second of the video. her face still in my memory very alive. also i have more feelings towards people who do the sn method as i have sn in my hand. there are recordings of people who do sn method live so yes it affects me

 

[t8129]

No

 

[cctt23]

i become completely obsessed with figuring out the details/placing the puzzle pieces together...it's how i found this website initially...the person who ctb had spent time on this website. i'm just in awe of people who muster the bravery to do it. i'd for very long just assumed that suffering alone meant you went through it alone but wondered how people figured out tactics, and found this website. it terrifies me and ignites a deep curiosity in me

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

yes, a lot. to think of the pain they must be in to die. i wish no one had to. and i feel sad.

 

[StarsAbove]

yes, a lot. to think of the pain they must be in to die. i wish no one had to. and i feel sad.

I appreciate your humanity