I won't lie, when I started seeing my health decline recently, I was hoping for a brain tumour or something incurable. At least that way I could die without guilt.
Turns out the only thing they could find is the brain damage from 10 years ago that they failed to tell me the full extent of or give me ANY further treatment for. No explanation for why it's getting worse, just "oh hey, your brain's fucked. Sucks to be you."