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Die.A.Ria

Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined my whole life
Jul 17, 2026
103
My dad just sent me a video of myself when i was about like 4 years old and it just made me cry so bad because in the video i was so happy and it was genuine and it made me feel so upset that her life has to end this way and what she had to go through

And it made me feel even more bad for my dad because i love him so much he truly cared about me and seeing him in the video too being so happy made me cry even more because of how bad i feel that his first child has to kill herself. i feel so guilty
 
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meowpuppy

meowpuppy

valerie | she/they | puppygirl
Jul 11, 2026
354
it makes me worse, but for a different reason. i was happier then, obviously, but my parents loved me more back then too..
 
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hdead

Specialist
Jun 2, 2026
349
Yeah. My mom showed me a pic at 2 years old in the lap of my grandpa and it caused me to weep. Such an innocent happy kid turned into... This? Yeah it was rough to see that.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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At least my parents have already passed, but yes.
 
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