NSFW Does anyone find Porn too depressing to watch?

[eatantz]

Female, I cried when I was like 14 when I found out most people in porn videos don't love each other lol. I find it really hard to watch tbh It's just so fake

 

[Promised Heaven]

Having a history of childhood SA and amnesia about it until 22, I surprisingly didn't delve into porn until I turned 18 (not even for legal reasons, I was somehow protected or cowardice until then).

In all honesty, it was kinda fun at first, but it bothered me I was into kinks of being helpless and abused and had no clue why, as well as getting nightmares of being abused after watching it. I forced myself to stop because it actually terrified me more then depressed.

After realizing I had an extensive history of SA, I looked back on porn and feel almost no enjoyment from watching it. A good chunk of it of it goes into the extremes, gross, or extremely predatory "Woman left tied up, random man finished the job" kinds of content. And anything with lore is acted badly (they only know how to do the deed, so dialogue is either over exaggerated or equivalent to a school play).

I personally feel scared of porn, because the industry today exploits and makes us delve into our deepest desires when regular stuff no longer makes us excited from abusing our dopamine receptors. It's more depressing to see how it affects others rather then the content itself.

 

[bearbrikk]

Because my father and other (male) family members sexually abused me when I was a child, I find intimacy and sex hard to deal with. As for my physical problems, they don't help either. Every time I am intimate with my partner it hurts because of my disease and it's hard because of the triggers, flashbacks, and the ultimate feeling of disgust.

 

[Trav1989]

Female. Never really appealed unless it was to watch real couple porn for new approaches/positions with my ex. Now I'm depressed I don't even have a sex drive/libido...

Male, same here. Once my wife and I got a divorce my sex drive plummeted to basically nothing and I just completely lost interest in it altogether. Not sure if/when it will come back but I honestly am not that concerned. I am still planning on having sex one more time before I CTB with some random hookup though just to see if it can reignite a spark but I highly doubt it because I'm so dead inside anymore that I might not even bother and at least I can say I was faithful until the end, not like it matters.

 

[Username1359751]

Having a history of childhood SA and amnesia about it until 22, I surprisingly didn't delve into porn until I turned 18 (not even for legal reasons, I was somehow protected or cowardice until then).

In all honesty, it was kinda fun at first, but it bothered me I was into kinks of being helpless and abused and had no clue why, as well as getting nightmares of being abused after watching it. I forced myself to stop because it actually terrified me more then depressed.

After realizing I had an extensive history of SA, I looked back on porn and feel almost no enjoyment from watching it. A good chunk of it of it goes into the extremes, gross, or extremely predatory "Woman left tied up, random man finished the job" kinds of content. And anything with lore is acted badly (they only know how to do the deed, so dialogue is either over exaggerated or equivalent to a school play).

I personally feel scared of porn, because the industry today exploits and makes us delve into our deepest desires when regular stuff no longer makes us excited from abusing our dopamine receptors. It's more depressing to see how it affects others rather then the content itself.

Lol legal reasons

 

[Edpal247]

Male. Never appealed to me. Fake people, fake sex. I'm not "getting any" while watching so it leaves little appeal. Maybe something super kink but even then, meh.

 

[needthebus]

Pretty much like the title says. I might watch more if I didn't find it so incredibly depressing for personal reasons. I won't elaborate. But I was just curious if anyone watches less, or watches more somehow, while being chronically depressed and suicidal.
Knowing Male or Female would helpful if you don't mind sharing. Thanks.

I don't find porn depressing and really like it. Sex continues to be a biological desire and porn makes that aspect of existence less painful. It gives me some of the pleasure of sex without the complications of sex. I'm glad I have it and grateful for the "stars" and producers.

I am depressed about being single, however, and my body being marred by violence and trauma, but overall it helps make the world less painful. I did go "porn-free" for a bit and it made things much worse, I didn't try to date more, I was just in more emotional pain. I wish I were with someone and had sex often enough that I didn't need it or want porn.

I am not including my gender because I am already afraid I have included too much info that could be used to identify me on here.

 

[everythingblack]

Female. I've mostly had a low libido due to depression but sometimes I'll have periods of extreme hypersexuality, which includes porn consumption. It's genuinely not enjoyable and I mostly agree with everybody else's sentiments on here that it sucks. But, if it gets you through another moment or day alive, with a bit less suffering, then it's worthwhile in my opinion, as shitty as it may be.
Worth noting my take is most likely skewed as my relationship with sexuality has a history of trauma

 

[cryptoinvestor]

Female, i never masturbated with porn despite working in the sex industry as a camgirl/escort, until i started dabbling with meth. It turned me into a sex demon, i would watch all kinds of porn and fap (stimfap), for 48hrs straight. I became someone i didn't even recognise. Crazy drug

 

[calculusmaster]

Male. I used to watch it every 2 weeks or so because my ex's libido was waay too low and I had to resort to that.
But nowadays I find it kinda boring unless it's a solo session of a woman or nudes, now about the whole porn induced erectile dysfunction I still haven't had that happen to me thankfully. I'm currently going out with 3 different girls and my monster is still working to some extent despite having to pop some 5mg cialis because of the antidepressants I'm taking.
I mostly watch it to escape reality and get instant gratification but that's not the case anymore since my post nut clarity hits me hard and makes me even more suicidal lmao, who knows maybe post nut clarity could be a great tool to mitigate SI

 

[jbear824]

I wish there was more plot and more story to porn. Otherwise is just feels like people being reduced down to living fleshlights and that's just awful.

It's a bit better with gay porn. But not by a lot. I've been trying to stop watching porn, given that so many stars are being revealed as pedos lately.

 

[Minsu]

Female. I'm pretty asexual tbh, I rarely watch porn

 

[Placo]

I don't watch it often but when I watch it I try not to think about anything else and therefore it has the effect it should have.

 

[divinemistress36]

I dont understand the allure of watching peoples genitals and buttholes

 

[dtkdave87]

Very short term satisfaction, then the sense of guilt kicks in. Not worth it.

 

[Edpal247]

Yes, because I'm a child sex trafficking victim.

That sounds very counter-intuitive. I am hoping that was just ill-humor. If true, I am sorry that happened.

 

[Not a Cylon]

Yep. I don't see a point. My body just doesn't work like it use to so watching people with atypical bodies enjoying a wonderful human experience I likey won't ever have again is torture. I regret not having more sex when I was younger, I wasted my goddamn life and I can't do a fucking thing about it. I hate waking up.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I dont understand the allure of watching peoples genitals and buttholes

Lmao, this is also how I feel. I find most porn to be goofy looking at best and gross and exploitative at worst.

I think the wires were inevitably crossed in my brain at an early age to turn me off from the idea of sex permanently. Despite being attracted to men and women, if someone showed me porn or a random picture of a nude model, it's never done anything for me.

Anything that I get turned on by is not even related to sex at all in most people's minds and links up with various traumatic experiences I had a child. Getting sexually abused multiple times throughout my teenage years and childhood likely altered my neurodevelopment and fried my brain for good. A friend told me they have similar experiences where they developed a kink for being tied up when they were younger because it happened to them as a punishment.