Does anyone else wish something else would kill them?

[SuicideBlonde76]

Hell yes I want someone to shoot me in the head!

 

[Kishalink26]

My family is wonderful so I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but I have no other choice. Death is the only way out. I wish something else would kill me instead, maybe a car accident or something.

Bro, i feel u, that's exactly how I feel and how I always felt, i promise you that there's no day that I don't wish that someone came and give me a gunshot or have an accident car, i'm tired about everything, i always try and try push myself in a better way or place but I can't, i'm totally mess

 

[Sweet emotion]

I'd actually love to hire a hit man to shoot me a few times in the back of the head and then in the heart to make sure I'm really dead. But I don't have the money to pay so done to do that.

I have prayed for that to happen to me as well... (Doesn't Work) :( So many people want to live but they have their lives taken or ended. I just want to trade them.

I completely understand.

Anyway...it's still impossible to stop doubting, go thru with it... But at least I could find a sympathetic doctor & I could get help in Oregon... assisted

You'd have to have six months or less to live to be a candidate which I think is ridiculous but that's the law there.

Anyway...it's still impossible to stop doubting, go thru with it... But at least I could find a sympathetic doctor & I could get help in Oregon... assisted

You'd have to have six months or less to live to be a candidate which I think is ridiculous but that's the law there.

I wish I had enough money to put out a contract on my own life. Just pay someone to shoot me. One of my favourite book series is called the Dresden Files by Jim Butcher and the main character puts in a debt with a guy who kills for a living to kill him so it looks like he's been assassinated so he doesn't have to do something really awful that he signed up for anyway I don't want to give away the plot. It's toward the end of the series (it's not done yet; anxiously awaiting another book!).

This is exactly what I said. Just turn around and close your eyes. I'd want silencer on the end of the gun though because I don't want to hear the bang even if it's for a nanno second.

 

[Kodama]

Hell Yes ... In my sleep or suddenly (Heart Attack) Should be great...
I have 2 kind of dream right now... This one & winning at Lottery (I know, I'm pathetic !)

 

[Kowahi2310]

Hell yes I want someone to shoot me in the head!

How many of us can afford a hit man? Lol.

 

[uselessloser]

I think i rather do it myself

 

[Nem]

Holyfuckingshit this sucks balls existing like this, I wish a corrupt country would drop a nuclear bomb on the world and take us all out!
Peace/hugs

 

[Fml]

Yes, been feeling like this recently. Anything that is quick and painless would do it for me, a train, a gun to the head etc.

 

[Nem]

Yes. I'd also be interested in taking out a few drs before I went...to dinner of course
Peace/hugs

 

[lymbo]

Yes. I'd also be interested in taking out a few drs before I went...to dinner of course
Peace/hugs

maybe the docs would lyke to meet one hungry gryzzly bear?

 

[webancverba]

Every single day when I'm on the road. More of a passive than active wish at this point

 

[Nem]

maybe the docs would lyke to meet one hungry gryzzly bear?

I'd love to watch a grizzly bear tear a dr to shreds while they are still alive. I would be ecstatic about the whole concept
Hugs/peace

 

[Kingkelly]

I'd love to watch a grizzly bear tear a dr to shreds while they are still alive. I would be ecstatic about the whole concept
Hugs/peace

Throw my piece of shit dr in there that ruined my face and life. Yes please

 

[MeltingHeart]

I'm so unlucky I walked 100s of ks downtown this summer and I never even glanced at a crosswalk and I wasn't ran over once... I smoke I'm a recovered alcoholic I self harm with SN why arnt I dead yet?

You self harm with SN? How/ why? @ReneeSuicideAccount

 

[Kingkelly]

Everyday I pray Ill die from something. Heart attack would be nice in my sleep. I have the means to kill myself but havent yet. IDK why i prob will soon though

 

[wildmoon]

Gosh, yes. It would be so much easier!

 

[Hel]

A doctor. Without pain, in a hospital and getting my organs removed (I'm a donor) at the moment of my death and given to someone who can really have a happy life.

If not, if it was quick and painless, I wouldn't mind to be the victim of some killer who could get caught just "thanks" to my death.. Since I'm useless in this life, at least I want my death to be useful for something or someone.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

Oh my God all the time.. I see all these mass shootings and car accidents and kids dying everyday , people who have their entire lives ahead of them and probably dont want to die, and I think "why cant it be me" I would gladly swap my life with someone who wants to live... the point is Yes, every day I wake up since my illness progressed to this point, I am almost disappointed to open my eyes. I wish we had a built in "off switch"

 

[ReneeSuicideAccount]

You self harm with SN? How/ why? @ReneeSuicideAccount

I honestly enjoy the feeling of it, I take roughly 2g and it is enough to really really mess my day up but not kill me.
i normally don't mix it with water and just eat it dry and drink some water to wash it down.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I honestly enjoy the feeling of it, I take roughly 2g and it is enough to really really mess my day up but not kill me.
i normally don't mix it with water and just eat it dry and drink some water to wash it down.

Wow- I've never heard of this, how does it make you feel? If u don't mind me asking. Just curious

 

[ReneeSuicideAccount]

Wow- I've never heard of this, how does it make you feel? If u don't mind me asking. Just curious

I guess the way I'd describe it, it's feel like super bad heavy anemia. I don't mean like normal anemia like hospitalized passed out about to die anemia. And some times I take pills with it to not throw up some times I don't. I've spent time in a ditch puking wondering if this was the time I took to much and died.

If you get your dose right you can actually have a pretty nice and calm day, I remember once or twice I don't know how much I took exactly but I just laid down in bed and enjoyed the peace of my body nearly dying. It was so calm and relaxing. I remember my wife laying on me begging me not to pass but I just wanted her to be chill so I could keep enjoying the moment.

also I've taken it and fallen right asleep those days aren't too bad but I rather enjoy it tbh.

and hopefully it gives my bitch ass cancer and kills me or I take to much and die that way I don't care I just want to be dead already.

 

[NickStanfield]

As someone with coronary heart disease, history of heart attacks, cardiomyopathy (enlarged heart), severe high blood pressure, etc., let me warn you away from wishing for disease as a mechanism to CTB. Slow death from disease sucks and is a huge part of my desire to check out early.

Personally, I'd love to check out while doing something beneficial - stopping a crime, saving someone... But that's unlikely so I'll take what I can.

 

[Meant2Die]

I guess the way I'd describe it, it's feel like super bad heavy anemia. I don't mean like normal anemia like hospitalized passed out about to die anemia. And some times I take pills with it to not throw up some times I don't. I've spent time in a ditch puking wondering if this was the time I took to much and died.

If you get your dose right you can actually have a pretty nice and calm day, I remember once or twice I don't know how much I took exactly but I just laid down in bed and enjoyed the peace of my body nearly dying. It was so calm and relaxing. I remember my wife laying on me begging me not to pass but I just wanted her to be chill so I could keep enjoying the moment.

also I've taken it and fallen right asleep those days aren't too bad but I rather enjoy it tbh.

and hopefully it gives my bitch ass cancer and kills me or I take to much and die that way I don't care I just want to be dead already.

Don't mean to come off rude, but if you have the SN why not just take a lethal dose and be done with it?

 

[Kowahi2310]

Don't mean to come off rude, but if you have the SN why not just take a lethal dose and be done with it?

Was wondering the same..

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

All the responses from those saying oh I wish I had an illness is really not helping those of us who have it and live in debilitating physical and emotional pain everyday. The very reason why we're here on this site.

Totally understand what you're saying. I think they mean something where death is imminent and there would be minimal suffering. I think the vast majority of us are in some kind of pain and just want it to end. I'm sorry to hear you're in pain and i hope things get better for you or that you can find peace.

I would hate to die from cancer! Slowly awaiting death whilst being really ill? Definitely not.

I think it depends on the cancer. Some people die within weeks of diagnosis. I think anyone who wishes for cancer probably wishes for something terminal with imminent death. It's not easy to go through with CTB and I think many people would rather have it done for them as long as the pain and length of time are minimal. But yeah, I feel for anyone who has cancer, especially one that is killing them slowly.

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

Hell Yes ... In my sleep or suddenly (Heart Attack) Should be great...
I have 2 kind of dream right now... This one & winning at Lottery (I know, I'm pathetic !)

To go out in your sleep would be nice. I also dream about winning the lottery (with a huge jackpot). I don't know if it would be enough, but I think buying houses and cars and traveling would help take my mind off things. I can't think of much else that would make me not want to CTB other than some miracle cure for PTSD, depression, anxiety, insomnia, fatigue, etc.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I was raised to believe a nuclear war would wipe the whole planet out in my lifetime. False advertising, dashed hopes ...

I know … I was also hoping that a huge meteor would strike the earth and Bruce Willis wouldn't be able to stop it.

How many of us can afford a hit man? Lol.

I can't … and I have thought of that as well.

Holyfuckingshit this sucks balls existing like this, I wish a corrupt country would drop a nuclear bomb on the world and take us all out!
Peace/hugs

Here's hoping Kim Jong Un gets his wish … then so will we.

I'd love to watch a grizzly bear tear a dr to shreds while they are still alive. I would be ecstatic about the whole concept
Hugs/peace

I would prefer to see them suffer at the end of their life and wish assisted suicide was legal.

 

[SadFather]

It would be nice if life force (for lack of a better descriptor) could be traded. I would give it to someone who wanted to live. I can die, they can live.

This would be amazing!! I too want this.

 

[ReneeSuicideAccount]

Don't mean to come off rude, but if you have the SN why not just take a lethal dose and be done with it?

Oh I'd love to, but sadly I'm needed here.

that's my life staying alive for other people, I hate it and can't take it. Some days I'm stronger than others some I'm on a hair trigger and ready to die anyway.

that's why my self harm is so extreme so I can die "accidentally" that would soften the blow of my leaving like "Renee didn't mean to kill her self it just sorta happened" like playing Russian roulette with SN, blades, and needles.

@Kowahi2310