On top of that my borderline personality disorder wife turned her vilification mode on me when i got sick. She's laid this bullshit on everyone in her life I don't know why I didn't see it coming.
i'm sorry to hear that, a spouse should take care of each other. my wife is more supportive the worst I get.i hope your wife trys to help you
Thanks for the good wish but she will never not resent me for being sick. All i can do is make sure she discovers my corpse
DownInaHole
Not so wise
- Jan 4, 2019
- 216
mathieu
Enlightened
- Jun 5, 2019
- 1,090
I mostly want to CTB because of mental health problems. Schizoaffective disorder, horrible anxiety and ADD. I do have a bad back but it is liveable with. The weight I've gained thanks to anti psychotics plays a big part.
If there was any hope that someone in the world could fix the bones in my face after that botched surgery in Thailand, I would not kill meself . I liked to be alive but there is no chance for me anymore
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That sucks, can't help but see heath-induced mental illness as more unfortunate.
It's just easier for me to think of that as "fixable" in theory.
When I was a kid I would think that medical science today is extremely advanced, and we have a sure-fire cure for more or less every disease except a few.
How wrong I was.
It's just easier for me to think of that as "fixable" in theory.
When I was a kid I would think that medical science today is extremely advanced, and we have a sure-fire cure for more or less every disease except a few.
How wrong I was.
riverstyx
Experienced
- May 31, 2019
- 218
I have a disease that starts with the letter C.
I'm hoping for the best, but I would like to have the option for a peaceful death if the disease advances on me.
I don't want to become a living skeleton not being able to walk or eat.
I'm hoping for the best, but I would like to have the option for a peaceful death if the disease advances on me.
I don't want to become a living skeleton not being able to walk or eat.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
It always is - that's one of the big things wrong with health problems. They climb right in as if they were at least as entitled to us as we are.
For me its just so pathetic really. I have CFS and chronic depression and I've been very very unlucky with the health system and been damaged by psyc drugs, but the reasons why thinks have got so bad that I want to die is because how much i've ruined my life with alcochol, coffee and ciggies in the last 2 years. I've otherwise been very fortunate in life. Good genes, good intelligence, good heart. Had a flawed upbringing but many have had it much worse. Still have parents and family who care about me. Have met amazing buddhist teacher and practioners and have witnessed real magic. I've just fucked up everything for no good reason it feels like.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
CFS is a serious bugger - if you've got people around you who believe it's real that's some help I hope. Maybe in two years the substances haven't done *very* dire harm?
I run into people crowing that I gave myself emphysema, but one needs bad luck too, not just harmful habits. And it took a lot longer than two years of dedicated smoking. If you've stopped, or if you do stop, a lot of the damage can still reverse itself?
I run into people crowing that I gave myself emphysema, but one needs bad luck too, not just harmful habits. And it took a lot longer than two years of dedicated smoking. If you've stopped, or if you do stop, a lot of the damage can still reverse itself?
No the problems that make me suicidal can't be reversed and will only get worse with age. But of course there is always doing your best to take responsibility for your health etc.
Camille Lejeune
Member
- Feb 14, 2019
- 74
Tortured_empath
Arcanist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 463
Yes. Left eye is almost shot. Are you a sufferer? My deepest sympathies if you are.
Camille Lejeune
Member
- Feb 14, 2019
- 74
Yes I am. Juvenile glaucoma in both eyes. I'm loosing my sight despite treatment/surgeries. Terrifying desease!
Tortured_empath
Arcanist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 463
Truly is. I know @Swisher is also suffering. I think closed-angle. The thought of my impending loss of vision hurts like a thorn in my chest.
mental health problems Used to be diagnosed with schizophrenia but because of my poor response to anti psychotics and also because of various childhood events they changed it to mixed personality disorder {paranoid and borderline} and complex ptsd. It's just a never ending circle of shit which I have been living in for now about two decades. you get ill end up in the loony bin ,then you end up experiencing non care in the community {a few mental health professionals are okay,but the system is shit} for a few years then they discharge you.You are fine for a few years but then your past or circumstances catch up with you {ie living next to a man who deals drugs} and it all snowballs and then you get sectioned again,,back on meds, this time I ended up with my address flagged by the police because of all the weapons they found there because I was convinced I would be attacked again . I have been told I need years of therapy but the nhs can't afford to provide it and I haven't the money what with being to ill to work and all and on disability. I have reached the end really. Made one suicide attempt a few years back at beachy head cliffs,but SI kicked in and the police detained me.
I have gained weight to due to being on anti psychotics, and also am pre diabetic now... I was so angry I refused to go for the tests to confirm Iam diabetic. Iam forced to take them or else they put me back in hospital. Anxiety is the pits,that in itself makes you suicidal at least with me.
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Camille Lejeune
Member
- Feb 14, 2019
- 74
I know exactly how you feel.
I love her profile picture ! Closed-angle must be so painful.
John Smith
Arcanist
- Aug 6, 2018
- 424
I think anyone that becomes terminal should have the right to die with dignity when things get bad, if you're just going to suffer for your last 6 months everyone should have the option
Hey same here. I'm pretty sure I've developed early cte from chronic head injuries from extreme sports and car accidents.
letmeseethedeath
catching the bus
- Aug 4, 2018
- 465
ThriveOrDie
We are already in hell
- Jul 11, 2019
- 449
If you have a terminal disease and you live in the US there are 9 states that allow assisted suicide and 2 more will be added this year. I wish I could trade my Lyme Disease for cancer. You have to establish residency in one of these states. IDK if a forwarding service would suffice? RV'ers use them to get driver's licenses and such.
apnews.com
Oregon removes assisted suicide wait for certain patients
SALEM, Ore. (AP) — Legislation allowing certain terminally ill patients to have quicker access to life-ending medications under the state's first-in-the-nation assisted suicide law has been signed...
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