Does anyone else want their sadness to consume them?

[Dr Iron Arc]

My sadness has already consumed me before and out of the pool of sadness, rage came out. Rage and fear I guess. I think fear has actually already engulfed me in its flames more than any other emotion.

 

[luneylonegirl]

Yes. I want to be sad forever to the point i will never feel happy anymore. So i can ctb coz nothing will make me happy anymore.

 

[whats_the_point]

I want to be able to lie down, curl up and waste away but I'm sure someone will come knocking on my door. I guess going into the woods and getting lost would be a way to do it but even then someone can come looking for you.

i wish i felt as bad as i did when my ex was abusing me verbally and psychologically. i dont know why. i kept trying to ctb ever time i talked with her, every second i was alive then. its all i know, i want to go back to her sometimes. im disgusted with myself because i have therapy and people who love me but i just wish i was miserable again. its the familiarity of it i think

I guess when you're miserable, there's some comfort that it can't get worse. Once you start feeling better, there's this constant feeling of slipping up and spiralling again.

 

[walkingdead2023]

I already passed that stage! I'm so quite and don't care nothing matters anymore.. I'm just waiting to solve a couple of things and then I'm out of here one way or another..

 

[twin size mattress]

Yes, but only so that it pushes me to overcome SI