Anyone else in therapy? 🤡

[mekhi]

Today I was asked; " What does peace look like for you? And What are things you can work on to achieve that peace?" And I'm just sitting here thinking about my plan to die. Daydreaming about sitting in a forest somewhere and committing. That's my peace.
It's sad because they are a good therapist. And there is a chance that with 4-5 years of consistent therapy I could be a functioning human in society. I just don't want that outcome for myself. I don't have the energy nor effort to invest in myself or get better. Yet I keep going to sessions and being dishonest… even though I know how life ends for me.

 

[daruino]

I feel the same. Therapy has helped me a lot but nothing can ever 'cure' my wish to die. I don't want to change that either, I just want to die.

 

[MonkeyButter]

Today I was asked; " What does peace look like for you? And What are things you can work on to achieve that peace?" And I'm just sitting here thinking about my plan to die. Daydreaming about sitting in a forest somewhere and committing. That's my peace.
It's sad because they are a good therapist. And there is a chance that with 4-5 years of consistent therapy I could be a functioning human in society. I just don't want that outcome for myself. I don't have the energy nor effort to invest in myself or get better. Yet I keep going to sessions and being dishonest… even though I know how life ends for me.

Brother SAME here man! Jesus H Christ on a cracker! I tell you what that daydreaming shit it awesome. I do it all the time and its just like a bottle that never runs dry. Glup glup glug glug. Refreshing!

 

[westernromanpatriot]

I used to go to therapy too a bit but I've gone to various ones and none of them understood me whatsoever, they just kept nodding along whatever I was saying. I've literally tried to directly tell them that I don't do well with their "listening only" approach, I need them to also say something like an actual conversation. Guess what, none of them actually did anything like that lol

It might work for some people but that definitely ain't me

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

I'm about to go to therapy again but deep inside I feel like I know it'S hopeless. Sure things can get better than they are right now, but everything still would feel like an endless chore to me and not enough joyful things rewarding on the other hand. So dying seems like the better option, not that I really want to, more that I need to for lack of better alternatives.