does anyone else want their death to be “famous” ?

[Voidhollow]

I don't want *myself* explicitly to be famous after death, but Idk the idea that people for months from now might say "yeah someone shot themselves here", maybe make up stories about a ghost haunting this apartment, it's kind of... comforting in some strange way. The idea that I made a mark on this world in some way... I think at the end of the day there's no wrong way to feel about it. It's really just the desire to not be forgotten, it's a common and understandable way to feel about stuff. I've been forgotten by nearly everyone in my life, I might as well be remembered in some way. That's just how I see it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not in a visual, gore way. If I'm really honest, I suppose a part of me wants a few people to see it as shocking or tragic. More though that it's a reflection on life really. That life is really hard for a lot of people.

Plus, if I'm really honest, I suppose retribution. Not that I want anything to actually happen to them but, there's one person who set me on this course in childhood. It's kind of enough that one or two people actually witnessed that. So, if I do eventually suicide- they'll know where it all began.

I suppose a part of me hopes some may take an interest in my life and my work but, I'm not delluding myself I'm good enough for that. There's also something that just feels good and natural about just fading from people's memories. I don't want people to remain sad about it. More that it was something that was almost inevitably coming for a long while.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Many people want to be famous, want to be in the centre of public interest at least once in their life. And many people also want that something of them exists beyond the grave. I can understand the feelings of the OP.

 

[singingcrow]

nope. I only want some people to know also I don't even want to have a funeral

 

[SoulWhisperer]

This reminded me of rorochan_1999... That story always makes me shed a tear...

 

[mikgazer6]

Yes. I'll record it and do it publicly (safely and not extreme). I want it in papers, on the news, circulating gore sites, and in your mom's facebook feed. The reason is because I intend for my last words and suicide note to be a well-written final act of advocacy for antinatalism and extinctionism.

 

[Valhala]

I absolutely do not care if someone mentions me after my death, watches a possible recording of my CTB, comments on my posts or anything similar. It is completely irrelevant and meaningless.

 

[Johnzaga23]

nah

 

[inthebay]

i've been suicidal since i was a young child. i used to want more attention for it, but i think that was when i still had more hope to continue living. i felt like if i made a big show of it, someone would "see" me. i don't want that anymore.

 

[Languish]

I seek to be unperceived and obscure. I do not find pride in wishing for death, I do not wish for my death to be idolized, glorified, or to encourage others. I wanted a life worth living, yet I could never bring myself to attain it. If any relate to my struggle, let it aid them in deciding to push forward, where I could not. If I am to be remembered, let it be as an example of what to never let yourself become.